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MarkSubsi -> Submissive Masochist in NJ (5/9/2016 11:48:23 PM)
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Hello everyone.
I just joined this site a short while ago. Many other online forums for people interested in BDSM are setup chiefly for soliciting memberships, so this site interested me deeply. It seems honest. I guess that's the word. That being said, many will consider me a dishonest sub, because I am married and my wife has no interest in BDSM and I am here without her knowledge. Let me just say that I have been drawn to BDSM and submission to dominant women since the age of 10. From my earliest fantasies about serving my grade school teachers as their slave and sexual pet to mass domination by groups of young women (once I got to high school). I adore the ideal of female supremacy. To have women be completely in charge and for men to do their duty in service to the superior woman. To be obedient and submit in all ways to the woman's desires. That's why I have always been drawn to strong women.
Many years ago I was in a relationship where she and I played with domination and although she was a little uncomfortable with it at first, she eventually enjoyed controlling me by squeezing my testicles. I loved having her have that power over me. And I loved freely giving it to her. The more she made me suffer the more it turned me on. The more I adored her. That relationship eventually ended and I have not been in a relationship with a woman who shared my interest in BDSM since then. I have sought some release at various times through the services of professional Dominatrixes. One was an amateur, others were not so great or weren't completely forthright in how our time together would be spent, but there was one who was delicious. She commanded over me for 3 hours with exquisite mastery (or should I say Mistressery? LOL. Okay, not such a good joke). Unfortunately, she relocated to New Orleans. I do miss her deeply even though we were only together once. I write to her now and then and let her know I'm thinking of her and how much I burn to see her and submit to her again.
Well, I don't want to ramble on too much. I lost many of you at that married part, no doubt. For those of you who continued reading, thank you for taking the time and interest in getting to know a little bit about me.
I would love to meet a real female supremacist who enjoys dominating men and who would not be averse to using me on occasion for her amusement and pleasure.
Respectfully,
Mark Subsi
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