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it's me again - 7/28/2016 3:05:01 PM   
JstAnotherSub


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Status: offline 		Some of you may remember me, but maybe not. There is nowhere else I can go and type this and get responses, so that is your burden to bear I guess.

I am about 2 months out of a relationship that lasted about a year. Not easy to explain, but I will just say that I found what makes me happy being of service to a man, and he thought he hit the jackpot with a chick who always wanted to cater to him and suck his dick....but eventually I realized that I am not a sub without a dom, and walked away.

The crying is almost over about it....I just always remind myself of some of the horrible things I have survived and know this too shall pass.

Got on here just looking at profiles for the first time in a long time. Seemed to be the same old same old, but one stuck out to me. The words were so frank and strong that it made me reflect on what had just ended recently and what might be in the future, so I dropped this guy a line and told him that while I knew we wouldnt be a match, I wanted him to know that his words had touched something inside of me and wished him luck finding his bliss.

He replied and reminded me that we had in fact communicated a long time ago. Few messages on here and then some long, brutal at times talks on the phone with me crying and telling him things I have never told anyone, not about sex, just about how I feel and what hurts and things I wonder about and on and on and on.

This has all happened in a week or so and tomorrow I am meeting him. He is picking me up for us to go to dinner and then we will either part ways or I will be used in ways that both terrify and excite me more than I can say.

This is not sub frenzy, been there done that years ago. This is something that feels so right to me that I am crying right now typing, because I know that tomorrow is going to show me something about myself that I do not know. Maybe show me that I am not cut out for this at all and maybe show me that dear god this right here is what I have been waiting for.

Thanks to our friend Google, and him being totally open about anything I asked, I am confident that he is who he says he is, which is a man looking for a slave to use and abuse and break down and bring back up and make laugh and make cry and ............

So I sit here on the threshold of something, something that I believe is what I have wanted and needed since first discovering that there was a part of me who needs this, something that I actually wrote yesterdays date down about because he told me a year from now I will be his still and I will be laughing at how terrified I am right now....

No idea why I am telling yall this, except I think on Facebook it might freak a few friends out and it might make a few show up at my door saying dammit I never knew, now suck my dick.

Comment if you want to, I feel much better after just typing all this though. And I hope in a year I am still his and laughing at my fear.

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RE: it's me again - 7/28/2016 3:27:47 PM   
OsideGirl


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RE: it's me again - 7/28/2016 3:55:50 PM   
JstAnotherSub


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Status: offline 		Thanks lady, if the voices in my head are wrong this time, I am never listening to them again-lol-but they have never let me down before.

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RE: it's me again - 7/28/2016 5:29:16 PM   
angelikaJ


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RE: it's me again - 7/28/2016 6:37:37 PM   
shiftyw


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Status: offline 		Good Luck! (I remember you, glad to see you are around again, and hopefully on the mend from some emotional wounds)

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RE: it's me again - 7/28/2016 7:59:09 PM   
DesFIP


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RE: it's me again - 7/28/2016 11:38:18 PM   
Greta75


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RE: it's me again - 7/29/2016 3:53:54 AM   
kiwisub22


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Status: offline 		May he be everything you want and more - and I hope dinner is good too.....

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RE: it's me again - 7/29/2016 4:00:21 AM   
Lucylastic


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Status: offline 		Jsta Hugggggggs I wish you luck n happiness, if he makes you truly happy, go for it. If your gut says no, listen, your decision is yours.
I dont think its "sub" frenzy, its the excitement of new possibilities, to me...you have always struck me as level headed.
You had a connection that obviously didnt scare you...I hope it goes well.

I have missed your posts and hello again!!!

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RE: it's me again - 7/29/2016 1:44:42 PM   
LadyPact


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Status: offline 		Hi, Jst. Of course forum posters remember you! I hope it all went well.


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RE: it's me again - 7/30/2016 3:49:44 AM   
JstAnotherSub


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Status: offline 		well was trying to put a pic I took after we parted because it shows a face I have never seen on me before. I just made it my primary pic on the other side.

I am so happy to see some of the old posters replying to this thread and thank you all for the well wishes.

no idea how this will end, but the beginning was quite awesome.

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RE: it's me again - 7/30/2016 12:30:28 PM   
Whiplashsmile4


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Status: offline 		Yes, I remember you... and I myself have been away from here for a long time. Just came back active in the last week or so.

Good Luck. =)

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RE: it's me again - 7/30/2016 2:39:47 PM   
WickedsDesire


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Status: offline 		What do I remember? Not you. My memory was never good even afore the pox and cfs gotted me…..Observe (all my stories are true) Today I was talking to someone on pof and she said I was over at your bit for coffee, last year….after many mail back and forth…I vaguely remember in a dreamy kind of way now…married one I do remember…and the loon who needed help….and that other one…4! wicked you slut….meet not sleep with. I always state 0-3, no matter..

So, you were wiping your tasty tears away and you met another...you do not strike me as someone I would remotely consider even for a coffee - and I did that married one (oi for coffee) - they all think i hate married people on here and fet - I do not.

I wish all true happiness....yet, even on the mainstream sites, so few ever come across that

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RE: it's me again - 7/30/2016 2:47:41 PM   
JstAnotherSub


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Status: offline 		If any of that is supposed to make sense, I reckon my Evelyn Wud Sped Reddin cors comhenshun clas has failed me

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RE: it's me again - 7/30/2016 3:11:20 PM   
OsideGirl


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quote:

ORIGINAL: WickedsDesire

you do not strike me as someone I would remotely consider even for a coffee


You weren't asked for coffee.

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RE: it's me again - 7/30/2016 3:11:48 PM   
DocStrange


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ORIGINAL: JstAnotherSub

If any of that is supposed to make sense, I reckon my Evelyn Wud Sped Reddin cors comhenshun clas has failed me

Evelyn Wud cannot help with this

Edited to add:
It's been a long time since I have heard that commercial!

< Message edited by DocStrange -- 7/30/2016 3:12:52 PM >

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RE: it's me again - 7/30/2016 3:16:07 PM   
LilJuly76


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Status: offline 		cripes he can't stop insulting anybody, I haven't been here long enough but he shouldn't be saying rude comments to the OP. I would say hi but I'm kinda shy.

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RE: it's me again - 7/30/2016 3:17:50 PM   
smartsub10


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Status: offline 		I remember you. I've been perusing the forums for many years. I do so hope you have found your joy!

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RE: it's me again - 7/30/2016 3:19:40 PM   
JstAnotherSub


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ORIGINAL: WickedsDesire

One must take better classes
I myself prefer a women of class, not classless, for they are a woe begone lot; the needy and attention nosebags. I would not approach with fifty shots of penicillin, nor my sorrow for who they are.
I once made someone drink salty tears, probably a few actually.

Well I am mighty glad that you find me classless and unworthy of coffee. I must be doing something right!

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RE: it's me again - 7/30/2016 3:24:16 PM   
JstAnotherSub


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ORIGINAL: DocStrange

quote:

ORIGINAL: JstAnotherSub

If any of that is supposed to make sense, I reckon my Evelyn Wud Sped Reddin cors comhenshun clas has failed me

Evelyn Wud cannot help with this

Edited to add:
It's been a long time since I have heard that commercial!


I still love the old Cheech and Chong.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xKP06aWPQhg



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