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BitaTruble -> Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/10/2017 12:58:19 PM)

I have all three of those. Some of them ..are mmmmmm good and I would never think of discarding them. Some of them - I use a crutch to deal with them simply to help maintain a balance. Those are crutches which are less important to break one day as the stuff that is immobilizing is the more immediate need IF I want to walk forward.

So, I think I want to try to take a step forward and I figure one foot in front of the other worked the first time I learned to walk so why not stick with what works.

Well, I want tell you I don't actually have any memory at all of learning to physically walk and I bet I fell down a lot but eventually I did get to yell Qapla'! (The Temporal Prime Directive will be strictly enforced in this thread)*

Whether I was in Texas during the summer or wore CaliBaby the rest of the year..the weather was usually good and I spent most of my youth tomboy barefoot. That makes your feet pretty fucking stuff so what's my problem?

Learning to walk a second time is magnitudes more difficult, taking much longer than the first time and chipping away at the roots holding my foot in a past over three years gone is wearying. Am I futility chopping at kudzu? (Hmm..I seem to be hung up on rhizomes..was the probably the figging threads fault).

What i am doing is not working so I need a new plan that won't wear me out. I need to get rid of a hold that was in place for a very long time and was watered with passion, obsession and addition, fed with power and tied up in Gordian knot of kink and laughter then cemeted in place by omg-crazy love, affection and friendship. This root might be too tough for me. What do I use?

Lye? Bad for the Earth, bad for my soul. Acid..been there, done that, don't need flashbacks.

Bombs? Nukes? Danger of fall out and hurting innocent bystanders. That would feel icky. At the moment a clear solution doesn't appear to be forth coming.

So, mask..out.
Drugs..out.
Being a person I don't want to be..out.

I had the word 'journey' tattooed on my right wrist a few years ago so I wouldn't forget its importance to my growth. I am working on executing the thought but think a secondary fear of too many choices is also coming in to play should I ever get to shout success this time around. Oh, then there's this insecure thing going on because, well I am an older woman with peculiar tastes. In an odd way my insecurities are helpful because they do make me aware of the fact that I actually do still care.

I guess I'll get there.

Scotty, one to beam up.

[sm=abducted.gif]

::whispers:: "The Temporal Prime Directive sucks," as the dematerialization process takes place.

Don't ask my purpose. I don't know. I just did..because.

*Blame the references on Bounty. He threw a ball of Star Trek yarn at me.

























kiwisub22 -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/10/2017 1:11:42 PM)

The only problem with physical passions/obsessions/addictions is when you have to move - then you are faced with boxes of fabric, wool yarn and books.
*sigh* It was .... hell!

Throwing away that first box of books was awful.

Should I say that the bdsm toys were already moved by that point. Priorities, priorities.

As I get older, I find out more and more where my priorities lie - and a tidy house isn't one of them.[:D]




WickedsDesire -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/10/2017 3:17:15 PM)

My first 10 000 emails on here and fetlife were ignored are you telling me you're a hot women or a fat blob and hideous monster plying your trade?

Penny Dreadful- Caliban Speech FULL.

John Clare reciting Wordsworth in Penny dreadful Finale

Ply your trade elsewhere you make me sick




tamaka -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/10/2017 3:35:37 PM)

My passion are those few people in my close circle whom i love with all my heart.

My obsession is living a minimalist lifestyle.

My addiction... Master.




DocStrange -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/10/2017 3:55:47 PM)

Bita take it one day at a time. And if you cannot get your foot going in the right direction, a little crawling can move you forward [sm=cool.gif]




NoirMetal -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/10/2017 7:18:22 PM)

Things generally let go of me when I figure out I need to stop feeding them.




BitaTruble -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/10/2017 7:31:27 PM)


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ORIGINAL: DocStrange

Bita take it one day at a time. And if you cannot get your foot going in the right direction, a little crawling can move you forward [sm=cool.gif]
i know..not today though...just one of those days missing my babe, and my dad and my best friend (today would have been her birthday.) I was trying to focus on positive but it didnt work and I really regret starting the thread. The coffin and hearse video posted affected me and not in a good way so I am out of here and I wont be back.




Greta75 -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/11/2017 12:38:14 AM)

FR
I am trying to figure where is the BDSM related stuffs in this topic. Also, topic doesn't even suit the content mentioned.

And I don't even know if OP talking about the walking matter is literal or allegory.

But I'd say that my passion is doing anything that people around me have not thought of doing. It can be anything.

My obsession is with locating my other half, the mirror male version of me.

My addiction is food and orgasms, which often makes me wonder what if I don't need food or orgasms ever in my life, how different it will be.





WinsomeDefiance -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/11/2017 6:33:31 AM)

Bita,

I hope you do come back. I know you will find your stride. You have had many of them, as I recall. Hard to believe it has been a decade since I read one of your posts for the first time. I recall how transparent and vulnerable you were in that post and many others. You are an inspiration. We know that we never really "get over" the loss of those we love, we learn to make room for the grief and then Eventually we learn to make room for new experiences. It is hard to get your feet under you and find your stride again, under the weight of sorrow.

Take your time, share your experiences (please). If I were to paint you from the words you have written over the years, I would need more colors and a larger canvases, and you would be dancing. Of course there would be lots of red.

I hope you find a way through this. You are a remarkable woman.




WickedsDesire -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/11/2017 12:54:06 PM)

[image]http://collarspace.com/attachments/051117/8781EC9B-9B2B-4796-BD2E-B97CE97C7D121.jpg[/image]

and I have learned to walk many a time ( i still do) and its no fun (no-one helps me ) - oh thats kali the cat the evil one :)

Anyhoos tonight episode was Evil Obsessed kirk season2 episode 23ish

Passions, Obsessions, Addictions - my take on those words is true beauty is rare I am not sure you understand

I loved this clip https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d-j27VHwKWw





tamaka -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/11/2017 1:01:31 PM)

Sometimes you just have to be grateful for what you had and enjoyed for so long. Many people seek all of their lives and never find or experience it.




Kaliko -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/11/2017 1:54:11 PM)


quote:

ORIGINAL: BitaTruble

Learning to walk a second time is magnitudes more difficult, taking much longer than the first time and chipping away at the roots holding my foot in a past over three years gone is wearying.



Learning to walk a second time is more difficult because you have an expectation as to how it's to be done now that you didn't have before.

Let go of expectations. Not easy....not easy at all, I know.

But may I make a heartfelt suggestion that the root isn't what's holding you back - it's you looking at it and trying to figure out how to be free of it. Look up. You'll find your footing.

If it appeals to you at all, and if you haven't read it already, may I suggest "The Power of Now"?







WickedsDesire -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/11/2017 3:13:11 PM)

there are so many dull people on here of rampant stupidity

I have learned to walk about 12-20 tmes- did any of you help me? You should shut your traps right about now

A life of 3 cats. hot water bottle and being alone is not an easy life.




WickedsDesire -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/11/2017 3:31:34 PM)

You do not understand :(




tamaka -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/11/2017 4:06:00 PM)


quote:

ORIGINAL: WickedsDesire

You do not understand :(


Why don't you join in on some adult group? Perhaps take an art class or something.




Greta75 -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/11/2017 8:11:38 PM)

FR
Wait, so it's not allegory?
I'd think if one been in any major illness or accident and is now just regaining use of their legs again. Obviously, it is gonna be a journey and a process, as the cells within are still recovering.

Difficulty to walk may be, simply cells inside are not yet fully healed and connecting with each other correctly. And that all takes time but will get there eventually.




tamaka -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/11/2017 9:10:37 PM)

She is referring to having to move on after the death of key people in her life with whom she shared deep, meaningful relationships. I was just saying instead of looking back and mourning the loss, move on being grateful that she got to have those relationships. Some people never find 'The One', for example.




Greta75 -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/11/2017 10:10:54 PM)

quote:

ORIGINAL: tamaka

She is referring to having to move on after the death of key people in her life with whom she shared deep, meaningful relationships. I was just saying instead of looking back and mourning the loss, move on being grateful that she got to have those relationships. Some people never find 'The One', for example.



So it is allegory?

So confuse!

Then I am relieved to hear that she never lost the physical use of her legs!

Emotional hurt is another story. That takes forever to heal for everybody. Only solution is ridiculous amount of time.

That's the shitty part about life. First of all, we all have limited Time. But when you are in grief, you need to waste soooo much time to be okay again. And there is no choice, it's a process. Yet life IS short! And by the time you recover, it gets even shorter, life.

So everyone deals with grief differently and heals with difference ways and heals at different pace.

But if one can take control of their emotions, and just heal faster, that usually would be best.

But toughest wound to heal are emotional ones. Just gotta be patient.




LadyPact -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/13/2017 2:28:19 AM)

Bita,

You already know I'm kind of a dick, right? In your case, I wish I wasn't. I would *love* to say something ridiculously insightful, based in wisdom, or some kind of thing.

Unfortunately, I'm not as smart as you.





WickedsDesire -> RE: Passions, Obsessions, Addictions (5/13/2017 2:04:10 PM)

I have been everywhere since the beginning of time in apparent modus.

And yet here I am the best of all




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