ownedgirlie -> RE: Web sites and the life style (8/2/2006 2:06:44 AM)
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ORIGINAL: SusanofO P.S. Not to throw this thread off-track, but - I did read the recent updates on the thread on Fear in the Ask a Master, forum, and I don't get why more people don't recognize 'psychological bdsm' (of lack of a better term) more often as a legitimate past of bdsm activity either. It's obvious to me it 1) Exists and 2) Could be just as fulfilling as any physical bdsm activity (maybe more). Although I personally credit you with opening my mind to aknowledging its existence more, via your posts. Hey there Susan...This caught my eye, re: "psychological bdsm." In my experiences, this avenue of submission runs deepest. In fact any physical activity we experience together has huge psychological and emotional depths for me - if not as a direct result of the act itself while it is occuring, but in the aftermath, affecting me in all areas of life. An example of aftermath - My father, who is quite ill, had a stay in the hospital recently. While he was in there, some really awful things were happening to him (I won't get into detail here) and I was assisting in the situation. It was horribly traumatic for me, and when all was said and done, I excused myself a moment and went to the bathroom, where I locked the door and bawled my eyes out. When I thought I had composed myself, I realized I was paralyzed in fear - I could not leave the bathroom. I could NOT go back out there and face more trauma. I just stood there, staring at the door. And then I thought of my Master, and I thought of some things he has put me through, which had nothing to do with pain. And I thought, "If I could do that, then this is quite do-able. I was able to take a deep breath and go back to my Dad's room for more. Didn't mean to hijack this...but the complexities of the psyche is amazing to me, and its place in D/s no less so. Thanks for bringing it up.
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