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Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/2/2006 8:07:17 AM

JessieMe

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I used to come on this forum for some fun and funny interactions.. This was the place to let loose and be wild with or without a BDSM context... Just BE REAL! (oops..not trying to start the real vs wannabe argument LOL)

Lately it seems to be just about these silly blogging questionaires..I know I know... Jessie quitcherbitchen and do something if you want it to change..but I am absolutely on brain fart right now.. The only thing I can think of is this...

Tonight I am attending the public dungeon in town for the first time meeting a new "potential owner"..most likely we will play..Now.. I am to a large extent an exhibitionist and not nervous about public play..esp since He has a very good reputation for being a strong and careful player..<can we say wet already??>

Would anyone like to share their FIRST experiences with public play? Feelings before / after, activities.. whatever you like..Lets get back to getting "real" and learn more about each other..

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/2/2006 9:01:56 AM

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My first public play was not with a potential owner. It was with someone I met through a smart group in Ohio. I observed him while he was doing play sessions with other submissives. He had his own collared submissive who is his wife and I watched how he interacted with her. I was fascinated with his experience with edge, fire, and wax play and how he combined them with some pain too and I just wanted to try it. I didn't think about being nervous about showing my body or anything all I could think was I want to try that.

But now I am getting involved with someone who is very active in the BDSM community. He makes and sells toys.. Beautiful floggers and whips and etc... He does public play often and we have talked about how public play would go with me. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. Maybe because there is much more of a connection between the two of us than there was with the other person. I guess I can't really explain it, but once I get into a scene I don't worry about public play don't even think that there are other watching so it doesn't really bother me there are just those few moments before hand where I'm like ohhh my stomach is in knots.

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/2/2006 9:21:48 AM

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I have never played in public yet. Despite having exhibitionist tendencies, I suspect, I have too many inhibitions in the way. It could possibly happen eventually, if circumstances lead successfully in that direction.

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/2/2006 5:47:21 PM

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quote:

ORIGINAL: JessieMe
Would anyone like to share their FIRST experiences with public play? Feelings before / after, activities.. whatever you like..Lets get back to getting "real" and learn more about each other..

I played in private for 8 years before playing publicly for the first time 5 1/2 years ago. The very first time I played publicly, the sub I was playing with and I were the only ones playing in the dungeon. It was very different to have people traipsing by and looking at us. At first I was kind of distracted, but then I entered the altered state of consciousness I can only describe as "top space" and didn't notice or care who was passing by, looking, etc.

Now I would say I enjoy public and private play about equally. For some reason, playing publicly has more of a "tribal" feel, maybe because I connect with the atmosphere and group energy.

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/2/2006 5:48:20 PM

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I have never played in public, I'm too shy for that...

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/2/2006 6:38:40 PM

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quote:

ORIGINAL: JessieMe

I used to come on this forum for some fun and funny interactions.. This was the place to let loose and be wild with or without a BDSM context... Just BE REAL! (oops..not trying to start the real vs wannabe argument LOL)

Lately it seems to be just about these silly blogging questionaires..I know I know... Jessie quitcherbitchen and do something if you want it to change..but I am absolutely on brain fart right now..

Ahem...
[gets into Joe Peci voice]
What? I aint funny enough for you? you want me to go on some unicycle, maybe get some makeup on? maybe get a big fuckin red nose and stick it on my face? What if I juggle, will that make you happy? How bout I tell a joke or two huh? i'm pretty sure I can think of something involving two blondes, a firetruck and a cat, will you be entertained then? Or how about a magic trick or two huh? I can figure out a way to pull a waffle cone out of your ear and then push some gelato outta my ass.

by the way, i'm just fuckin with ya. Go and look at some of my stuff, I dont really like those blogthings either...I think my threads are alright.

....they better be.

....

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/2/2006 7:21:13 PM

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I have never played public nor will I ... I dont down folks who do it but for me this is intimate and personal. Then again I am more service less interested in the play so to speak. * laughs* Maybe I have .. Have served ex's drinks and such in the past in the company of others but I'm thinking that dont count

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/2/2006 7:43:56 PM

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I copied this straight from my journal: (Hope your play time goes well and good luck with your potential Master)

~ FIRST REAL PUBLIC SCENE, July 19, 2006 ~
Daddy took me to the dungeon in DC last night. W/we got there soon after it opened so W/we had free reign since no one else was playing yet, they were just socializing. Now, this was my first "official public scene" on the equipment. (virginity lost...lol) So, W/we got a chair to put O/our toy bag/suitcase on. Daddy asked me if i was ready to start and i smiled and said, "Yes, Sir." He told me to get comfortable, but that some of the clothes needed to go. i asked Him how comfortable did He want me, and He said that it was my choice this time. i told Him i was fine however He preferred, so He asked if I was ok "nekkid." i said sure, and took my stuff off and folded it nicely over the chair and looked into His eyes for focus, and He smiled at me with His eyes and sexy lips. (melts)

He put my leather collar and wrist restraints on me and the blindfold, and hooked me up to a St. Andrews cross. i got all kinds of warm-up yumminess with the rabbit fur flogger, and the deerskin flogger, and then got the quirt and all kinds of stuff... *swoons* Daddy said that He liked the way i looked hooked up, blindfolded, and sinking into my submission deeper and deeper with each blow. i hit subspace at some point and felt so incredibly "drunk" that Daddy had to re-dress me and get me to the aftercare area so i could wind down. When i had my bearings again, all i could do was tell Him that i loved Him and settle into His arms. It was wonderful... He looked so big, beautiful, and incredibly strong as He looked down at me, i felt like i was going to cry happy tears. How can it be that when i thought my heart was overflowing with love for Him, and can't get any bigger, that i find myself with more love, respect, and devotion to this Man more than i ever thought possible?

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/2/2006 7:45:01 PM

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Aside from a few throws of a singletail by a friend of ours, the Kaptin is the only person to whom I have bottomed publicly (although I've done a lot of public topping).

The first (several) time(s) He and I played together was public. We'd been talking for about a month, and there was a demo/play event at a now-closed club a few hours away. That first night, I was nervous about the idea of playing in public, because I've got a pretty poor body image, and I was extremely self conscious. However, once we got there, I noted there were a LOT of people there larger than myself, and completely comfortable in their state of near-nudity (nipples and genitals had to remain covered). I did a lot of observing, and at one point, Master bent me over a webbed bed, lifted my skirt and spanked me for a while. That was the entire extent of our play that night.

The NEXT month, however, I was there in corset, heels and stockings, getting strung up and paddled/flogged/cropped/caned into subspace. These days, sex tends to take over our private play, so we tend to do our lengthiest, most intense scenes in public.

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/2/2006 9:03:21 PM

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Fuckin' banana

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/3/2006 5:59:35 AM

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Daddysredhead,
Thank you for your wonderful story. I have always enjoyed reading your posts and I must say, I was not dissappointed this time. You rock!

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/3/2006 6:31:07 AM

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I've played "semi" publicly (small intimate groups) and enjoyed it a great deal. The first time, I was very nervous , it was at the home of some friends of my first Dominant partner. We were the second couple to play so i was already a bit warmed up by watching the first couple. That was 6 years ago and it remains one of my favorite scenes. You really do get so involved in whats happening to you that all others around you disappear. ( at least in my case)
While i cannot say i have a burning desire to play in front of a larger crowd...i have nothing against the idea. I actually have some specific "public" fantasies that i hope to enact one day.

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/3/2006 6:36:31 AM

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Gauge Sir i think i love you!

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/3/2006 6:56:40 AM

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JessieMe.
My Dom had played in public dungeons in the past, and took me to see how i felt in that surrounding.
i had never played with anyone besides Him before, and were meeting another D/s couple there that we had gotten to be good friends with from local munches.
He had expressed concerns that especially the first time, i may feel overwhelmed and not in my comfort zone to be able to relax and want to strip down and play. This dungeon allowed totaly nudity or whatever coverage was wanted to make the bottom feel comfortable.
i was very nervous going in, but everyone was so warm and welcoming, and it was non threatening to me.
We ended up playing twice that night. The first time was on the St. Andrews Cross in the corner. i was surprised at my comfort in stripping off and relaxing into play so easily.
The second time we played, the couple that we were friends with both joined in. I was kneeling on a long padded bench, and had the wonderful experience of having 3 on one, which was also a first.
after the play i was getting a drink of water and chatting, and a slave came up to me and said that she really enjoyed watching the interaction of my Dom and i during the sceene that it was beautiful. i realized then that people were not there to be voyeurs or to critique my size naked and flaws (although maybe some were), but mainly watch the interaction between those involved, which made me see public play in a different way entirely.
i hope that all goes well for you.
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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/3/2006 7:22:26 AM

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quote:

ORIGINAL: zumala

I have never played in public yet. Despite having exhibitionist tendencies, I suspect, I have too many inhibitions in the way. It could possibly happen eventually, if circumstances lead successfully in that direction.

Zumala, one is not REQUIRED to play at a public dungeon. A lot of people go to the parties and NEVER play. They like the social aspects and not all of them watch either

Now when the word gets around ther's a hot scene going everyone becomes a voyeur.

Many people go and observe what's going on several tmes before they jump into public play. Or not.

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/7/2006 2:10:57 PM

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Ah here it is. Given last night was the first time introduced helen to public play I was going to have her post her experience of it here... but I couldn't find the damn thing till now and I've already sent her off to bed (I have a tired girlie today). So just using this post as a place marker so she can find it tomorrow

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/7/2006 5:10:57 PM

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Have played in public a couple of times with my Master. My first time was pretty scary. I was worried who would be watching me. Nervous about getting nude in front of everybody and my stomach was in knots. Even though I do have some exhibitionist tendecies and really wanted to play, I was still nervous about actually doing it. And me and Master were the first to play so that made it even more scary. But once I had been up there awhile and really started to get into it I forgot all about being nervous and just enjoyed the experience. Now I am the one who asks if we can go play there again.

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/7/2006 6:36:44 PM

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Rumtiger you almost made me spew my water everywhere!

This is a great thread! I haven't played in public but we do plan to go to a public dungeon soon and we might join a spanker's group that plays. Both things make me REALLY nervous and a little freaked out. I am happy to hear that people do go and just observe. I can see myself getting to the point where my Sir plays with me in public and maybe someone I knew well enough and who we both trusted. There is that part of me that thinks it all sounds really exciting.

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/7/2006 6:40:51 PM

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i'll let you know...if i ever have one...LOL

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RE: Disheartened...<sigh> - 8/7/2006 6:45:45 PM

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Gauge Sir i think i love you!

Get in line. I decided to marry him because apparently he's an awesome cook. You should hear what he was bringing to the Collarme Virtual Picnic! ::drool::

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