|
behindmirrors -> RE: Improvement as a person (9/1/2006 8:58:05 AM)
|
My Dom has been an incredible influence in my life. He has improved me in so many ways, it is almost impossible to list them. He has not tried to "change" me so much as to allow me the chance to show him myself, to allow me to embrace what is good, and he has given me the strength and motivation to do things I needed to do for my own good.
When I met him, I was still more than a little afraid of people, but he dispelled this quickly. I learned through his unwavering example that I could be vulnerable, that I could trust another person and not suffer for it. He has taught me that sex is not something wrong, that the ways I experienced it before perhaps were, but that it could be healthy and beautiful. He has shown me how to love on a level I cannot hardly describe. For these things, I am greatful to him.
He has encouraged me to pursue my ambitions, to take up music, to go on tour, to do art. Sometimes, he assigns things to me that are simply things I have wanted to do but are concerned about taking the time for. He makes sure that I take time for myself, that part of my service to him is to improve who I am and my own talents. Were it not for him, I would not have started painting again, I would not have thought it okay to spend time playing insturments when there is work to be done elsewhere.
He has given me things to read to improve my confidence. He has told me that I am a hero to him because of how I have handled things that have happened in my life. He would not let me be a victim to what happened in my past, but instead, showed me what I should consider so I could rise above these things. He makes sure I eat when I would otherwise skip meals and starve. He takes care of me when I am upset or ill, and he never blames me for getting upset or sick, he simply helps me to get better again, and will not let me apologize for these things. During the beginning months of our living together, I broke two vertebrae, and were it not for him, I would not have healed as well as I did. He would make me take the painkillers, go to my appointments, and rest so I did not make things worse. I would not have done that last thing alone- he showed me that being able to care for myself and rest when I need to is good and that he wants me to value what and who I am- so that I can be better for him as well as for myself.
behindmirrors.
|
|
|
|
