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carnivean -> Inherent value of pleasure? (9/2/2006 10:50:38 PM)
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I feel very little pleasure or emotion. This is partially due to anhedonia, the result of choosing not to treat severe depression for 5 years. I do not enjoy many hobbies, or food, or the touch of a pretty girl. But I do enjoy the sentiment behind the touch: one of the few pleasures I have left is the thrill of being liked and things like being eyed or smiled at.
I have developed a taste for misery, like a strong wine or cigar. I enjoy its variety and fine subtleties. I now enjoy it as much (or as little) as pleasure. I do things like self-injure and not wear a coat when it's cold, and also deny myself some pleasurable things (like sex) so as not to "ruin my taste."
My question is this: What is the value of feeling pleasure, does it improve your life? It seems like it makes sadness stronger by contrast too, so you'd end up no happier overall for the experience. Which would make striving for it pointless. Note that this is not about finding "the one", just about how you interact with the people outside of an emotional connection. I know it's "better to have loved and lost," but is it better to have fucked and dumped?
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