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MistressTheaZ -> RE: altered state? trance? Kundalini? (9/10/2006 9:02:10 AM)
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OP, I regularly practice within energy healing, (reiki and pranic), but your question here leaves Me with a few more...
This is not an unusual phenomena, but there are a few possibilities, IMO. Note the following is based on My own experiences and opinions.
First, let Me ask you:
-when the numbness was spreading through your body, where did it begin?
-was the feeling heat, coolness, or nothing distinguishable?
-when you spoke, were you aware of speaking, or were these just expressed vocalizations (not conscious words)?
-'coming down' from this, how did you feel?
-with the most recent experience of this, did you begin with meditation or go to this at some time within the experience? Or did the feelings just begin on their own?
I've had something like this happen Myself within deep meditation, and for Me, it has to do with the transcendence from the physical, the waking self to a higher astral plane. For Me, it is part of journeying. It isn't a place I visit too often; in fact, only in times when I have needed to give heavy-duty attunements or ascend to be able to channel or vision quest do I attempt it.
It can feel, when the energy is coursing through you and being raised from within, that there is a spreading stiffness, your limbs and movements unable to be controlled, speech or sounds that you may or may not be aware you are emitting, so on. Should one be concentrating to raise and run kundalini, this can feel like a heat, spreading through the body. Hands and feet are particularly affected. When spreading through the torso - from the solar plexus chakra to the heart chakra - it can almost feel like one's breath is being literally pushed out, the heart beating fast, and a few tears rolling down your face isn't unusual. It can feel that one is almost being pulled from your physical body, slipping out of it, or some strange feeling of being carried along or moved, though the physical body stays motionless...and it can be terribly frightening when it happens. I know there have been times, usually lying on My side, that I have gasped for breath and felt My entire body begin to go completely stiff. I can't really move or speak when that happens, and if My eyes are closed, one can see the flashes of color as the energy works through each chakra. The energy rushes through and pushes through each chakra, and it's possible to feel sharp pains if there are blockages within them as they are cleansed and amplified.
An attunement can give a similar reaction. While the energy is cleansing, the colors may even seem to bleed into one another as negative energy blockages are released and the chakras are being healed, balance and energetically amplified with healing energy, (the 'white light'.)
Why it happened again...I'm not surprised to hear this happened within deep sensation play. The kundalini is allied very strongly with sexual vitality and activity. That said, the stimulation of the various centers of the body must be controlled; the development of awakening and running Kundalini depends mostly on the readiness of the individual. Intuitive knowledge will indicate when this is the right time, and the various signs and symptoms of being ready for this awakening must be interpreted and regulated by that individual. If your inner bodies have progressed toward a higher spiritual alignment with your subconscious and waking self, this may have come to you while the power centers of the body were being stimulated and energy was being raised from grounded personal energy within a functioning root chakra, through the sacral chakra and upwards through the remaining centers.
Whether it's dangerous? In My opinion, it can be, depending on exactly what is happening here. Running kundalini without knowing how to 'shut off the tap' so to speak and descend back to the physical, waking plane can leave one not only extremely drained, but disconnected mentally. The mind must be strong and centered within meditation to bear the strain of remaining the main junction between the physical and inner bodies. Search 'raising kundalini' and see where the references to physical exhaustion and an appearance similar to a psychosis aren't unwarranted within cases where, it seems, the spirit was willing, but the flesh was weak.
I highly recommend finding a regular energy healing circle and an experienced Reiki Master to be able to learn how this can work for you, and how to use it positively for yourself. You MUST be able to trust that your teacher or practictioner knows how to raise, direct, and ground energy, and be able to teach you to do the same for yourself. It sounds like this is something you are currently lacking, and I'd strongly encourage this going forward.
Answer a few of those questions, OP, and we'll see if this doesn't make some more sense yet.
~Thea
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