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slavejlb -> what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/16/2006 10:34:39 AM)
I have a compliant Masters far and near cover your eyes and hears. For this is mostly pointed at you. Now dare any of you that called yourself Master criticize or put down another Master/slave relationship. Just because it does not fit into your world. I am slave and I do serve a Master who is a bit far from me, in fact he live in a different country. I do care for this person. I can not tell you how many so call Masters have told me because my Master is far away, that we don’t have a real time life. Let me tell you about real time lives. With my Last two Masters who I did serve out side of just words on a screen. I got close to them, to the point and I know you are going to think I am a weak person, but I gave my heart, being, and all that was me to them, My last Master nearly destroy me mentally to the point that when it ended it came very close to ended me, and my life. And his thought was not is problem. I became yesterday trash. Then the Master, before him I was happily severing, until one day he ask me to marry him. I was his first time wife, and all of sudden he tried to become what he thought was the good husband. Now you should know I did not ask for this, if I wanted another husband I would have stuck with the one I had. But life goes on, Now this man who supposal loves me, is gone this weekend banging his slave, the last weekend before I leave for Idaho to be with my kids and grandkids. I am so important that I am not even worth spending any real time with by either of these two men. And for these two I am suppose to smiling and happy. Thanks. Now you can see why serving a Master who is far away is safe, it does not lessen it, or make it more non existent. It keeps me safe from every getting that close to where my emotions get so entangle and mix up to where I feel like dying inside. For why would I want to put my physical and mental self out there again to be stomp on and trash. All I ask of you Masters/doms don’t belittle my relationship and don’t say it is not real, I have real and it almost killed me real time, and other. Thank you for letting me rant and rave, take care and be safe Master Mawgan slave java ps what this boils down down too, is how dare you judge me, and my Master realtionship, until you have walk a mile in my shoes and felt the hurt pain and shame i have.

velvetears -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/16/2006 10:51:56 AM)
i am sorry you had such bad experiences real time and hope one day you find true healing from it and can release any pain you still feel. No one should bash you for wanting what you want, and if it is what you need or want at this point then be happy with your new Master online. What i have heard about online vs rt i don't hear as bashing as much as they simply cannot be compared on any level. This i believe is true. But you have had both so you understand the difference between them. Many who never had rt don't and they need to understand how each differ. i think the key in any relationship in regards to "loosing ourselves" or "being destroyed" is within ourselves to control. You can learn to love someone yet keep your boundaries intact. Sadness, lonliness, feeling a void are all normal feelings when we experience a loss but to shell up and never allow yourself to feel love again is cheating yourself so much out of life. i hope one day your heart heals and you trust again. It's not easy and i'm not saying give out your trust easily either. Good luck and wish you joy and healing!

Celeste43 -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/16/2006 1:06:59 PM)
There are good people real time and online. There are bad people in both places. And there are people who are confused as to what they want. And even those who change and grow. I'm sorry you're now too afraid to try to connect in the flesh. Late at night, it can get lonely without someone you love to hold. Heal and be well.

zero69u2 -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/16/2006 1:09:50 PM)
Patience and enjoy the pursuit.. my advice you've just gotten out of a relationship.. give yourself some time to heal your heart before leaping into cyber world or real world.. If you want that real master.. First of all, you are a submissive. You are not a doormat, and you aren’t a majik carpet either. You are not expected by any in-the-know Lifestylers to submit to any Jackass who says or insists that you must. In fact, to be seen as serious about this Lifestyle by O/others W/who are, you are expected NOT to submit to just any Jackass Who tries to tell you that you have to. Good relationship takes time. slow down and don't accept cyber collars or anything of that nature. not being judgemental but it takes a good deal of time to find the right partner. If your finding that cyber is your path to happiness.. then run with it.. But the quick path isn't in my opinion going to get you long term results.

mnottertail -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/16/2006 1:13:49 PM)
Are you done? 'Cause I mean--LOL. Sorry, Ron

DivaDuchess -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/16/2006 1:56:10 PM)
Not all of Us are horrible people. I truly believe that IRL or Online ... the only things that matter are trust, communication and the ability to be one in love and passion. Good luck to you and may you find the healing within through this venting. No offense has been taken by your words by Us.

Lordandmaster -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/16/2006 2:06:25 PM)
I love it when people are compliant.

NastyDaddy -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/16/2006 3:09:15 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: slavejlb ... Then the Master, before him I was happily severing... Sorry, but your thoughts just kill me. [;)]

utterlybutterfli -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/16/2006 4:23:56 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: NastyDaddy quote: ORIGINAL: slavejlb ... Then the Master, before him I was happily severing... Sorry, but your thoughts just kill me. [;)] I'm still loving your work, Nasty [:D]

gooddogbenji -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/16/2006 4:28:00 PM)
Why would I create a thread for all complaints of no one uses it? I want to complain about that - where's the thread? Yours, benji

krikket -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all complaints go here but could not fine it (9/16/2006 4:59:10 PM)
While i try hard not to condemn the entire gender for the actions of one (or two or..) i know it's not always easy -- for neither gender... Huggles hon...and good luck in the future. jimini

ownedgirlie -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/16/2006 8:02:04 PM)
Truly with all due respect, you recently posted a question about being released with no reason whatsoever, which might give others an opinion of your Master (assuming this is the Master you are now referring to). When one brings their relationship problems public, they are subject to the judgment of others. I do hope things are well for you now.

ayasha -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/16/2006 9:07:25 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: slavejlb I have a compliant Masters far and near cover your eyes and hears. For this is mostly pointed at you. Now dare any of you that called yourself Master criticize or put down another Master/slave relationship. Just because it does not fit into your world. I am slave and I do serve a Master who is a bit far from me, in fact he live in a different country. I do care for this person. So your Master lives in another country - OK, no problem there. As far as one can tell this is your third Master, at least in this thread. I can not tell you how many so call Masters have told me because my Master is far away, that we don’t have a real time life. Let me tell you about real time lives. With my Last two Masters who I did serve out side of just words on a screen. I got close to them, to the point and I know you are going to think I am a weak person, but I gave my heart, being, and all that was me to them, My last Master nearly destroy me mentally to the point that when it ended it came very close to ended me, and my life. And his thought was not is problem. I became yesterday trash. This would be your second Master, correct? Then the Master, before him I was happily severing, until one day he ask me to marry him. I was his first time wife, and all of sudden he tried to become what he thought was the good husband. Now you should know I did not ask for this, if I wanted another husband I would have stuck with the one I had. But life goes on, OK - this would be your first Master. Now this man who supposal loves me, is gone this weekend banging his slave, the last weekend before I leave for Idaho to be with my kids and grandkids. I am so important that I am not even worth spending any real time with by either of these two men. And for these two I am suppose to smiling and happy. Thanks. Is this man your Master (am sorry but am getting confused) - if so, would this be Master #1 or #2? If he is a Master to you and he has another slave - he can be with either of you this weekend or any other time and it is not your place to question it. YOU may think he should be with you this weekend because you are going away for a bit - but if it makes him happy to spend this time with his other slave - that is his choice. Now you can see why serving a Master who is far away is safe, it does not lessen it, or make it more non existent. It keeps me safe from every getting that close to where my emotions get so entangle and mix up to where I feel like dying inside. For why would I want to put my physical and mental self out there again to be stomp on and trash. All I ask of you Masters/doms don’t belittle my relationship and don’t say it is not real, I have real and it almost killed me real time, and other. Thank you for letting me rant and rave, take care and be safe Master Mawgan slave java ps what this boils down down too, is how dare you judge me, and my Master realtionship, until you have walk a mile in my shoes and felt the hurt pain and shame i have. one has not read the other threads to see why people are saying things to you about having a Master in another country - it seems that what people would question is why you have had so many Masters, why you have recently posted that you were 'dumped' by a Master without so much as a phone call/e-mail; yet you now have an online Master and are also talking about this man that supposedly loves you - it is all very confusing - one does not know how long you have been in the lifestyle, but if you jump into relationship after relationship what do you expect? There is a saying - Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again while expecting different results. one hopes you will step back and learn more about yourself and the lifestyle before you get hurt again. And by the way - serving an online Master will not keep you from being hurt both mentally and emotionally. You need to take some responsibility for the choices that you keep making - and not always place the blame on others. Food for thought - that is what a slave would do.

juliaoceania -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/16/2006 9:34:23 PM)
I would not worry about how others define your relationship if you were happy with the one that you have.If your new found love is all you say he is then why does it matter what strangers on the internet think of what you share? It doesn't matter. Just like your opinion of those who do not share your views should not matter to them.. I would think a little while about allowing others to impact your emotions via the internet whether they be on a messageboard or your master. You are the one feeling those feelings,... so you being upset with total strangers is not hurting them, it is hurting you. Good luck to you

slavejlb -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/17/2006 6:44:02 AM)
Greetings first i wish to say thank you for letting me rant a bit yesterday. and your repsonding. but i aslo have to say i am sorry for i guess i miss lead in my wording. Since in my profile i wrote that i serve a Master who does not live close, in fact he live in another country. There have been doms/Master who in there letters to me have stated i am not real nor is my Master because it is only on line. And to them i was ranting at. Just because there is an ocean and bunch of land that keeps us apart doen not mean i am any less of a slave nor he any less of a Master. It was hurting that it was these Masters/dom were saying. take care and be safe Master Mawgan slave jlb

slavejlb -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/17/2006 7:05:12 AM)
Hello Ayasha just to clear some things up, i have been in the life only five years so in many ways i am still young. I have in my short time, had 2 online Masters, this includes my first who show me the life though the way of Gorean. along with the one i serve now. I have also had two real time Masters, one i married ( do not do that if you like you bdsm life unless you are both new to the married life) hopes this helps some. take care and be safe Master Mawgan slave java

OhReallyNow -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/17/2006 7:11:03 AM)
quote: I have also had two real time Masters, one i married ( do not do that if you like you bdsm life unless you are both new to the married life) this slave married her first Master when their unmentionable was 3 years old. marriage did not in any way change the fact that he was Master and this girl was nothing more than property; if anything, it just emphasized that fact.

LotusSong -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/17/2006 7:23:43 AM)
The only opinion that matters, is your own. To expect total acceptance from the faceless multitudes in etherland to unrealistic. And who the hell cares what a bunch of pixels with gigabytes think of your situation . If YOU are happy, I'm happy for you. *Do not let this box on your desk determine your life and happiness.*

LaTigresse -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/17/2006 7:47:15 AM)
quote: ORIGINAL: LotusSong The only opinion that matters, is your own. To expect total acceptance from the faceless multitudes in etherland to unrealistic. And who the hell cares what a bunch of pixels with gigabytes think of your situation . If YOU are happy, I'm happy for you. *Do not let this box on your desk determine your life and happiness.* Exactly

ayasha -> RE: what i wanted to type in the all compliants go here but could not fine it (9/17/2006 1:45:09 PM)
Thank you for sharing this - one knows some couples that are struggling with this, it is good to hear from those that make it work. It seems like it would be a wonderful life - being able to have a family with your Master/slave. quote: ORIGINAL: OhReallyNow this slave married her first Master when their unmentionable was 3 years old. marriage did not in any way change the fact that he was Master and this girl was nothing more than property; if anything, it just emphasized that fact.

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