Mavis -> RE: Your Collar (10/4/2006 9:24:02 PM)
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i have to say, can't beat the feeling of peaceful living. i'm only just coming around that corner. i have neither collar nor wedding band. i miss the wedding band terribly, but then, sometimes i think the lesson i learned that put me here gives me more peace.. i found that no matter what is promised, what is expected, professed faithfulness and the even evidence of solid character over years... STILL gives no guarentee of security within a relationship. Once i truly knew deep down that i could not control any of those things or hang any expectations on the Him, i could live more free than i have ever been. That doesn't mean i don't still slide into pining for what used to be my "due" the right to wear the symbolic band. i suspect i'll probably not ever have that back until it has completely lost all importance beyond a piece of jewelry. That might be the best thing for me... as most of lifes best lessons have gone, i think i won't really "have" the band or the collar until i really don't "Need" either one, if that makes sense. My choice if i had it? replacment of my plain gold band. For collar, i sometimes wear two colored chains (from Wal-Mart no less!) strung together as a wrap anklet, but that's only my reminder, selected by me, not gifted.
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