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LovingStrength -> Love and BDSM (the unfettered heart) (1/28/2005 9:57:43 AM)
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The Unfettered Heart
I am forever awed by the power of the heart. Not in the physical sense. I speak of the poetic, the metaphysical, the part that you can feel so deep in your chest, when you are feeling a great love for someone, or a great throbbing pain, that takes your breath away, when that love is somehow broken. Left in shards strewn about your soul. Leaving you in a fog, or thick slow syrup. A place that makes no sense. Where you can no longer think straight, nor wrap your brain around anything tangible. Where all your hopes and dreams where wrapped up in that one love, and fed by the hearts blood. You feel empty, and so alone, and it feels as though you will never find your way back to sanity.
I wonder how something so strong, as the heart, can be so blinded, so foolish, so vulnerable to the influence of someone's agenda, schemes, soul, and, yes, even someone's heart. How it can betray itself so willingly, without any regard for its host. Leaving that soul, naked, and raw. I wonder how it can so readily believe a lie, even when it knows it is being lied to. How it can let its most fervent dreams be shattered, in the blink of an eye, by hearing only one sentence.
I wonder how a strong, seemingly wise, experienced, Dominant male like myself, can still fall prey to my own heart. Allow it to make me a fool. A mushy pool of tears and lost dreams. Been there, done that. Yet still, even at this time in my life, I still have not learned, that I have no control over it. And I guess I should hope, never will.
It is so hard to be wise, step lightly. Stay unfettered by cynicism, yet still able to love. I see no other avenues.
I imagine, unless my heart has died, or grown completely cold,(which would leave me worthless to myself or anyone else)that I will always, in someway, be ruled, by my own heart. And possibly again, betrayed by it. If I am to stay human, and a viable person, I guess that is the chance I will have to take.
You might think being a strong Dom, that these lil problems, such as the heart, should be of little consequence. That I, as a Master, do not ever have to worry about such things. You are mistaken! Unless you and your lil one are only into hard core Master/slavery, Sadistic/ masochistic part of the lifestyle, and have no need of such emotions as love.(which I doubt)Your heart in this lifestyle is the most important thing you have going. As a DaddyDom, it is even more so. Because it is with exposing my heart to my lil one, that I can nurture her. Lead her upon our mutual path. Find her trust. And hopefully become one.
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