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subartist4dom -> An apology for a really stupid post (10/29/2006 9:17:39 PM)
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I will begin with a short apology for a post that caused quite a bit of unrest and negativity within the community. It shouldn't have happened, but it did. Even I am very displeased by all this and even though I shouldn't be the one having to apologize to everyone, I am. Why? Well its an issue that does not need to be discussed, but in light of a certain post this issue now has to be discussed. So I will try to make this as painless as possible.
Many here don't know of my rather recent past before I met my master. I don't have it in my profile nor do I bring it up much in posts. However it will be this time and hopefully it will be the only time. Needless to say I was in an abusive relationship with my ex bf. He was controlling and when he didn't get his way he became violent. He has bit me, kicked me, hit me and even slammed me to the floor. I was too stupid to get away and had a little one with him. I got concerned for my little one that I placed her with family which made my ex very mad. The abuse got worse as he tried to kill me several times. In one attempt my tailbone was broken. It was the last fight where I ended up with a black eye and stabbed. Sadly it didn't end there. I kicked him out and went to the hospital. When I got home I found my apartment destroyed and stuff missing. I got online and IMed my childhood friend who is now my master. He came over immediately and anything I could save I did. The rest was thrown in the dumpster. I grabbed my little one and moved in with master. It was supposed to be temporary, but well shit happens. My ex however decided to start harrassing my friends to find out where I was. One of my closer friends finally told him since he was scared that he would be killed. I can't blame him for it. So since my ex can't get to me, he decided to have some fun online. Too bad I changed my passwords on him. Well except the one here, but I didn't use a name I normally used. Again a friend of mine that was in this community told my ex my name on here. So he decided to post some BS in here and rile people up.
And it worked if everyone can't tell. He guessed on alot of it and made the rest up. Ok, I figured lets change the password and cure his ass. And it did work. So I figured I'd just let things settle down and let people forget this whole incident. Yeah, well that was till I got a card from my ex bf. In the card he wrote that he loves me and wants to be back with me. Claiming his heart bleeds for me and that he's been calling me, but I don't answer the phone. But I love this part. He signs it love you always into eternity, forever your cuddlebug.
After reading that I just wanted to puke. He didn't care about me when I was with him. He didn't care about our little one and well had he really loved me he wouldn't have been so abusive. I can't help but shake my head and feel sick that he even exists. Honestly I dunno whether to sit here and cry, or shoot his ass the next time I cross paths with him. What he did here to the community under my name is absolutely unforgivable. He mislead everyone and caused many to be upset. This I am sorry for. I know I was pissed over it and even after stating the truth, many still didn't know what to believe. I don't blame you. I'd feel the same way. Hopefully everyone will have a good day.
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