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Sirandlittle1 -> RE: Seriousness in Switching (11/18/2006 3:22:23 PM)
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I read this response, in either here or literotica, unfortunately, ive lost who wrote it, suffice to say, these are not my words, but they are my thoughts, on how we change as people.
How we do things, is irrelevant, why we do them is. I firmly believe, that a mercurial myriad of styles co-exhist in me also.
Every now and then, when that fleeting thought passes through my mind, that I may want to go back to Switching instead of Domming, I consider making a new profile.
And then I think to myself… well, that would actually be kind of dumb and a lot of work for me.
I see it as a matter of courage. I need to have the courage to say "Even though my past 600 posts have been a strong stance on what I am as a Dominant, I am willing to admit and accept change."
For the most part, I live an extremely flexible life, and lifestyle. Those who enter my circle, need to be willing to accept that.
I’ll give damn near anything a whirl. I was a sub, a slave, a Switch, a Domme. I did Pro-Domming, lecturing, created munch groups, and organized events. I’ve "dropped out" of the lifestyle for 2 years at a time. I’ve been a teacher, a writer, a waitress. I’ve worked in the judicial system. I’ve been booked in the judicial system. I’ve been a delinquent, and an A+ student. I’ve been homeless, college educated, a battered woman, and a spokesperson.
If someone happens to meet me during one phase of my life, they need to understand and grasp the concept that there is more to me than what they see in front of them. The ones who "get it" stick around. The ones who want to hold on to the fantasy that what they are currently seeing is all I’ve ever been and all I’ll ever be, tend to wash away rather quickly.
The boy currently in my life met me when I was 25 pounds lighter, Pro-Domming for good money, trying to start up my own vanilla business, and heading back to graduate school. He watched me learn new things about myself and make a decision to give up wealth for morals. He’s been there the whole time as my plans for graduate school went down the drain. He’s watched me suffer health problems to the point that there are days I barely make it out of bed, I vomit in my sleep, and I have zero inclination to ever pick up a flogger again. He’s learned about my past achievements, some unbelievable. He’s learned my past mistakes, some unforgivable.
And he’s stuck by my side.
I can look back at people who met me during my "good times" and once the bad times hit, they were no where to be found. Once they learned of my past mistakes, they saw me in a different light. I’ve met submissives who can’t swallow the concept that I’ve been victimized. I’ve met Dominants who couldn’t swallow the concept that I’ve been a leader.
I’ve really found that people who want to fit me in a box based on what I’ve said in the past, or written in the past, or done in the past, get very frustrated when they realize there is no box, and they quickly go about their way.
The people who take the time to get to know the core of who I am, usually stick around for the long haul. At worst, they might view me as a little bit flaky when it comes to trying new things.
But they are the ones who really know me best. They are there through thick and thin. They are flexible to the changes that come and go in life.
And that’s what I’m looking for in relationships. Not someone who judged me based on some articles I wrote.
If anyone recognises this piece, please inform me of who the author is.
littleone
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