mutilatedflower
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Joined: 8/7/2004
From: Melbourne, Australia
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I've been a member at collarme for a while now (probably even longer than this particular profile indicates), but I hadn't ventured into the forums before, and hadn't even visited the site in more than a year, until this evening (bear with me -- it's after 1AM here!).
Not sure how the urge struck. But, here I am.
I'm a lazy writer bum / postgraduate student / engaged switch. I'm bitter and cynical, on the outside, and full of warm fuzzy goo on the inside, hah.
I have always been something of an oddity.
I had a teddy bear at birth; when I began to speak, I picked out a peculiar name for it: Lavender. It was several years before I discovered that Lavender referred to a type of purple! Because, you see, my teddy bear is bright yellow. I have also reason to believe that Lavender has come out as transgender -- you see, now he has a vagina. I am not sure how it got there, but there's a slit there, that wasn't there before I put him in storage, five years ago! I am hesitant of referring to him as "he", but, I instinctively know he prefers it this way. He, too, is an oddity, having survived many instances of moving house, being slathered with mum's makeup by an eager young child, and being stuck in a 2mx2m cardboard box, all that time.
I still smoke too many cigarettes, and am desperately attempting to quit before I head out to New York on December 2nd, to get married, travel, and have a generally rockin' time. I mean... who wants to go outside and smoke in a New York winter, really? I don't smoke indoors, find it claustrophobic.
I am in love... *gasp* and it's very, very awesome. Even if I am still learning the ropes of this whole negotiating-with-another-switch-who-should-do-what-when thing.
I used to attempt to make my writing replicate the beauty and success of Antonella Gambotto's, but I lost the plot for a while there, in my flattery. I misjudged where it came from, and instead tacked on far too many adjectives and adverbs, in my desire to be descriptive. I am quite verbose, naturally, as you have no doubt realised by this post. When I write, now, I use words that are simple but not cliched, I avoid readily formulated phrases, and often come up with some very interesting things. They aren't necessarily GOOD, but they are interesting.
I think possibly the two worst things I have ever experienced, surprisingly, are:
--A spell of writer's block that lasted almost three years
--Having casual sex (BDSM or otherwise) with far too many people, regardless of the immediate gratification it provided.
As Gambotto once said, "I am merely human, female, hollowed and filled."
--nadine
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dig it up and devour
and it will be more like a song
and less like it's math
if you pull on my hair, and bite me like that
and the truth is that i can't hardly wait
and i don't care if we stay up too late
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