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ORIGINAL: twistedwillow

Hi A\all,  i was on the forum under then name 'nomansdoormat'  but i never got around to introducing myself.  my circumstances have changed in a few short bewildering weeks, and as a result i felt the need to start a new profile. So here i am introducing the new, less than shiny me. i feel so much less then whole now, not having my Sir in my life has left a huge gap, i still hope that i will hear from him, hear him voice telling me  yes he loves me or no he dosn't, its so hard to move forward while floating in limbo. He didn't tell me it was over,  he just disappeared from my life, i'm making the decision to move forward, forget the D\s  portion,  the vanilla side was given many chances, lol and stupid me sits here crying as i type this out, i dont really want gestures of solace, i think i just need to put it out there so i can get it straight in my head,  you know like putting it out in public  makes it real and final. Should i wait for him to come back to me? i dont think im strong enough. ok enough poor me.
I'm not looking for anything atm, but i didnt want to leave collarme,  ive enjoyed very much, lurking around the forum and reading the various posts,  either enlightening, interesting, or sidesplitting.

lol nearly signed it  Sir's dea,  but im not anymore,  i'm

twistedwillow