daddysprop247 -> RE: The desire to be "whored out" (12/11/2006 11:43:10 AM)
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ah...this used to be a rather hot fantasy of mine, being "whored out" to strangers by my Mate/Master. what attracted me to it was the (perceived) humiliation, total objectification, just being a piece of *ss to be used by any man who had the cash. i never wanted the actual money, not for myself anyway. it was important that i not simply be a whore, but be actively whored out, by someone else who was in total control. well this fantasy pretty much died once i experienced the real thing. the first time i was whored out it was an awful experience in a vanilla sense (guy was smelly, goofy). the second time the person was just completely sadistic and i left him barely able to walk or stand upright. it became a regular part of life, and something that i began to dread. not the being used by strangers...i was long used to that, and saw it as a natural thing. but with money being in the picture it made things different...i felt all this additional pressure to be "perfect", and to bear any and everything without the slightest complaint, because in my mind they needed to get their "money's worth". sometimes i would unexplicably break down in despair, crying my heart out, right before i was to see a customer. it had some very unexpected emotional effects on me. after a while my Master, for various reasons, tired of whoring me out, and things went back to normal...i'm "slutted" out for free. :) not that i'll never be a whore again...i'm sure i will, but it's no longer something i find "hot" to think about, tho i can certainly understand why it may be like that for others.
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