bootkicked
Posts: 9
Joined: 12/25/2006 Status: offline
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I don't understand. First you defend my fetish, taking it further than even my interest. I wouldn't do mud or obvious dirt beyond regular wear. Was the first part of your post facetious? I probably do watch too many videos, but as the I posted before, my tongue really was blackened by regular ground in grime. That was reality. It was mindblowing, unexpected humilation. Another time, before this fetish had really come to fruitition, I got a bootsole in my face that smelled like dried beer. What can I say? A fetish was launched. If this fantasy "bites me in the ass," how so do you mean? I don't care how other STRANGERS view me. I definitely wouldn't want anyone in my regular life to view this. Yes, I am ashamed of it because I know it is stupid. As is getting beaten. As is paying 2, 250 per hour to get humiliated in general and denied. I can get denied for free all day long. I'm ashamed of the whole thing and wouldn't want anyone to ever know any of it. So I thrive on it in secrecy. I agree on the trust part but when you see pros they are inherently strangers. It's all a leap of faith, anyway you cut it. And I have been burned a couple times. The fear of the unknown is all part of the adrenaline rush. BDSM isn't lifestyle or philosophy to me. It's about getting in touch with all kinds of senses like fear, arousal, shame, pain. It's a combination depressant, narcotic and even sometimes halucinogen. But you gotta play hard to get there and sometimes that is really rough and means getting pushed both physically and psychologically. Thanks for responding. quote:
ORIGINAL: WhiteRadiance I do not think it is a disgusting fetish. I have made my slave lick the soles of my boots before after getting them dirty in the mud. He cleans all my footwear after I wear them. And before anyone tells me how nasty that is, I would like to remind them that their computers, doorknobs, toilet seats and cell phones have more bacteria on them than the mud on my boots. I watch where I walk (avoiding shit). Yard dirt is really not so bad. Many unmentionables eats gobs of it and survive to live for years. I DO think you watch too many videos. Come back to reality, boy. As I say.. good luck.. if you ever get your "fantasy" it very well may end up biting you in the ass.. This fantasy is something that you are obviously ashamed of, yet you claim you don't care how others view you, if you do it.. tsk tsk.. I know there is someone in your life you would not want to see you do such a thing. Your fantasy has a potential to take you into dangerous territory, imho. If you do not know who you play with, how can you trust them?
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