chiaThePet
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Dearest Mystress, Your boy got a little side tracked here, pleaseforgive me for such, it behooves a boy to stayon track when given glorious lessons of life ashe serves adoringly under Your shadow. Gettingback to the subject at hand, i am reminded ofthe feelings and thoughts of such when first giventhe opportunity to share of Your wisdom, the reflections and parallels of such, and how i didor didn't realize these alignments within my ownhead and heart. i deeply pondered such then, myown experiences and the inclusion of othersmelting together to uplift and instill understanding.It is the recollection of that which i shared with Youthen, which i share with others now. Not as theimmovable declaration of "this is the way it is andall must believe and adhere", but the words of aheart in journey, containing both understanding ofexperience, and endless horizons of passion to learn.
From the advent of my birth, my most DearestMotherMistress took me from the sibling pack, placed me under Her shadow and began theinstruction which would set me on the course of my destiny, submission. Did She see something different within me that caused Her to choose me from the others? Perhaps it was the way i nursed at Her breast, perhaps i was more devoted and skilled at sucking at the nipple than those who had come before me, perhaps we bonded within this exchange, unlike the others, a " connection " more intense than nipple and mouth, far different than She had experienced previously. Whatever the reasons, i was chosen to be Her boy, in adoration and surrender. Here, if Freud is to be taken as an intellect and notjust a pious madman, (please hold the "he was anaddict preaching delusion diatribe", i know, i knowi'm just sharing how my experience has found aparallel to his words) began my accent into the id, ( the reservoir of inherited human knowledge ).Since the id is governed by the pleasure-principle,and i was fully engulfed at the oral stage of my life,i was more than likely consumed with the passionof connection with my Mother at Her breast. Thisboy, if his Mother found exceptional connection,was more than likely overindulged, which led to anoral fixation, locked permanently into my psyche,thus the object of my desire, oral satisfaction, thatdominates and affects my adult personality. Thecontinued strong attachment to the id more thanlikely progressed into the anal stage where i onceagain was being overindulged as Mommie's boy,setting the stage for my traits of being orderly,precise, neat, meticulous, careful and passive-aggressive. This boy has been called, " anal-retentive " more than a few times in his life. Enter the crucial conflict of the phallic stage.i most certainly remember my own Oedipuscomplex, ( the desire to possess my Motherand rid myself of my father ) the absolute loveand infatuation with all that encompassed Mother.This was nicely taken care of when father removedhimself from the picture, thereby removing anyperceived threat that he would come between meand Mother. This also removed the possibility ofdeveloping the super-ego, ( the voice of my fatherand all the guilt it would have brought with it ). Withfather out of the way, my possession of Mother andthe dismissal of fear over my own needs beingtrumped by his, gave this boy peace and harmony. Therefore, my identification with my Mother wassafe and warm, nestled deep within Her bosom.The blossoming oral fixation could continue to root,unabated. Perhaps i was still connected to Mother'sbreast at this point, i cannot recall such, oh that ihad the sweet memory of such. Since i was deniedthe latency period of youth, due to my sibling brothersand those that followed with their appetites of lust,my oral fixation taking deep root with each passing pervert, innocence and choice, lost to requirement. Ego, ( the representative of the outer world ) livedfor a short while in this boy, finding him married andzombie like, shoulder to shoulder with the others oflike mind , unfulfilled in my acceptable vanilla life.(though when i look out at the horizon thesedays, it seems as though someone spiked thepunchbowl with a whole variation of vanilla kink)Narcissism surely became tantamount in my lifefollowing my divorce. It was all about loving me andmy penis, safe, detached, free from judgment orperformance, but quite the lonely existence. Thusthe re-emergence of the id and it's oral explosion.Oral fixation, oral preoccupation, oral satisfaction, the days of my youth now screaming for nourishment.Though i can't imagine the intense craving and need within me now becoming even ever stronger, my Dearest Mystress can, She is smiling even now. The dynamics of obedience, survival is found throughobedience to the Hierarchy, deep obedience is reasonedand rational action, a powerful human response. Enterin Pavlov and the classical conditioning, the oldestmodel of change. Here i would like to interject this boy'stake on such. We have the components; The gift of Herflesh as Glorious Temple, and the boy's desire to Worship thereof. Show the boy the Temple, he desires to Worship, more than likely salivating like a dog. A natural sequence of events, unconscious, uncontrolled, an unlearned relationship. Now we add to the scenario, the crack of the whip or otherchoosen stimuli while allowing the boy optical access to the Temple, and the boy desires to Worship, still salivating. This is repeated over and over, every time the boy sees theTemple, he hears, ( or feels ) the whip or other stimuli, then desires to Worship at the Temple. Now we advance to the next step, the whip is cracked but the Temple is not shown,and yes, the boy still salivates and desires to Worship. Over repeated exposure, the boy learns to associate thewhip or other stimuli with the Temple and now the stimulihas the power to produce his desire as did the sight of the Temple. So we have taken the boy from the unconditioned pre-existing desire to Worship at the sight of the Temple, to the conditioned desire, wherein the stimuli has become the catalyst for his desire to Worship at the Temple. This classical conditioning really says nothing about rewards or punishments,it is built on creating relationships by association within the introduction of trials in respect to such. However it is defined or interpreted, the Glorious outcome is of Domme over boy, Sexually-Dominant over sexually-submissive. Domme has Her boy right where She wants him, below Her, Worshiping Her, on Her Demand. She becomes for him the Temple of his Worshipand Desire, his sex becoming Her sex, how beautiful is that? Just my two cents folks, ok more like a dollar and change, i tendto be long-winded at times, but who's counting minutes anyway? Thank You Dearest Mystress for sharing the learning tools andYour Wonderful Wisdom with me at MystressWorld, i am somoved within such. With Love and Respect, Your boy, chia* (the pet)
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