odinlove
Posts: 99
Joined: 9/26/2005 Status: offline
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As far as I can see, girls are so mean. I tryed all three years to settle down with a good relationship, NOTHING!!! So I have been moving around and advertising and even soliciting. Nothing.. Wierds Ideas run in my head like what every girl thinks when I walk by her an notice her attractive body or pretty face or some such natural illumination or un earthly in some cases. But My way of approach on life is soewhat blind to the truth I know. My life for myself has been always non- violent and always loveling, but as of the last almost 15 years of my life, I have been very Sad and have had a very critical look at people. My loved ones have left or died or gone away. All I can see is the faint relection of my Youthful and happy self from where I was as a kid. Not trying to poetic or depressing or emotion here, but a general description of my self. I am sure most of the people in world go through the same variables. From what I noticed, I have no motivation to ask a girl for sex. I would like to. Because, I think there is something always beyond our or in my case my scope for awareness and truth, I lack the true motivation to achieve My virtual bliss. So as all ye americans are so gluttonous, in my eyes that I have such dought as to security or my lively hood and well being. When I am desperate I ask, but a real family would never leave room for pain or for to much questions in regaurds to desperation or basic needs I think. I asked some one from this site before to help go into a better state of Mind-Body-Spiritual existence. I had a few comments from some girls who threw a few queries my way, but in this world of sin and greed it seems I was over looked again/ So maybe those little girls are bad I am thinking and maybe the family they had is poor and probably not really all there too, much like myself , but of course very different and special indavidual to its own pertainence. So why the cold shoulder America. Why the last inute on propastion. So heres my grief about it. Girls don't know me personally very well outside of of basic human trust and love and respect for themselves. But in this My request for true love has yet been given to me from whatever form it comes. But I always wondered why children or girls propose to less than others and I know I have been out of the Loving arms of both for the no better part of the last 20 years of my life. so in simple lay mens terms you all shoul keep me traveling, because I can, I am able and young and try and sexually release me because me and every thing else I every loved will someday will all be gone and dead and in that new greif will be even lesss room for error or
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