lookingwithin04
Posts: 48
Joined: 7/8/2004 Status: offline
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alone in the dark i try to sort out my feelings, i try to make you see, that your my everything that your the only one for me i bared my heart, body, and soul to you and you pushed me away like i was nothing to you but a cheap whore that night as we stood there saying our goodbyes i thought to myself will this be the last time. standing there in your arms saying our goodbyes was unbearable for me wishing i could make you understand, wishing i could make you see, that i wanted to die, that all i ever wanted was for you to care. I remember telling you that i loved you and then began to cry i heard your response and that made it even harder to say the goodbyes not really knowing if i would ever be in your arms again i've never been so afraid of your power over me until then so weeks later i find myself feeling so unsecure about you, about us, about someone who was once so pure i feel like a child lost is the night with no one to talk to with no one else in sight may God protect the person that i am may He lay me down softly to dream of the way my life should have been may my life become happier as time goes by may my hopes and dreams be fulfilled starting tonight i listen for your call and it never comes our relationship is turning from a crimson rose to nothing but a thorn something that was once so fulfilling, seemed so long lasting and that was filled with so much love is turning into a fear that i forgot about long ago i want the love back that you and i once shared i want to forget about the problems and recollect my tears i want to fall in love with you all over again i want the past to die and let our future begin i want the hurt to all just go away hoping that one day you will want me in your life to stay.
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