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blackdomuk -> RE: Subs How often did You Materbate before being Collared? (5/12/2005 4:37:34 AM)
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i started mastubating from a early age..i was the only boy when i was a kid so it was just me and my two sisters.
i used to hide in the toilet and play with my cock while looking at the underwear section of a catoluge..or i would lay across the side of my bed and rub myself up and down till i came.
oh yes once i found out the pleasure one gets from masterbating there was no stopping me!!
the sad side of it was i developed a guilt complex after my mum starting finding porno mags in my coat pocket!!
my dad would beat the hell out of me for bringing home porno mags!!
but the thing was he used to bring them home when i was a little boy and naturally i would look at them and get very excited.
its totally naturalbut he turned around and used to beat me very badly.
it never stopped me buying porno mags and neither did i stop masterbating..but i do feel sad that my parents took it so bad.
i was and still am very shy and introverted so i didnt get the girls that often cause i was always too nervous to speak to them..id just pretend i hadnt noticed them (but i did) and id go home and masterbate then cry cause the lonliness in me was so strong and i felt i would never get the chance to have a steady girlfriend.
i lost my virginity at the age of 21 in amsterdam..i was like a bull going for the red flag!!
and it was over so quick!! id been drinking and smoking cannabis with my friends so by the time i paid for sex i was so out of it!!
i wanted to do everything!! suck her tits, lick her pussy, fuck her arse, get my cock sucked the whole nine yards!!
but if you have ever been drinking heavy and then tried to have sex you know it wont work..yep brewers droop!!
but i managed to keep my errection going and she sat on it and rode me till i came.
im not a christian so the only guilt i felt was the fact that i had paid for sex and i worried for years that the news would somehow reach the ears of my parents..but to this day it hasnt.
i dont believe in this wait till you are married stuff..ive always been a rebel and i have suffered for it
but if i dropped dead today i wouldnt feel guilty for the wrong things ive done, after we are all free to do whatever we like.
i never thought i would end up being interested in the sub dom lifestyle but i have
i dont really like pain..i didnt get off on the vicious whippings i got from my dad when i stepped out of line..i remember my first seriuos relationship and my partner used to spank me very hard when id be taking a bath..i didnt like it but i didnt say it to her..i wish i had but i didnt.
i do have a sub side to me but i prefer being face sat or being pissed over my face rather than being viciously whipped.
i wanna be dominated but not hurt if that makes any sense?
im in awe of women and i particulary get great pleasure from worshipping their bottoms
i like to get on my knees in front of a womans panty covered bottom and press my face deep as possible in between her ass cheeks and savour the aromas and kiss her bottom all over
i used to love doing that with my ex.
then she would sit on my face fullweight..mmmm that was good lol
anyway ive gone off the point now lol
yes i still masterbate and always will till the day i die.
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