Divina
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Being with him sexually, making love, having sex, call it what you will, is a transcedental, almost magical experience because of the love and the connection involved. Anyone else present and/or involved transforms the situation, breaks the magic. They would be "interference" in an otherwise perfect picture, as the interaction between me and him would have to take a detour. He and I, "the empire of two" is out of this world; he and I and who knows who else, is a fuck, be it a good one. I understand that for this transcedental experience to happen there must be intense feelings on both sides so I see a threesome as somehow being rather more emotionally "loose", rather more detached. I do not mean to say that people who said they enjoyed it didn't have deep feelings for their SO, but I indeed discerned a varied degree of detachedness, in their being the watcher; the voyeur. I don't want to be detached when I share something with him, I want to be so far in it that I could lose myself in him. And that cannot possibly happen -for me- with a third person around. So, I dismiss the possibility of sharing him as inferior experience, very far from my ideals. And I am afraid I would resent him preferring fucks over almost religious moments between the two of us, or him not seeing the whole thing the same way. So much so, that I would walk.
< Message edited by Divina -- 8/20/2007 5:06:48 PM >
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