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rskenderian -> RE: Learning humility and being humble (4/3/2007 3:56:07 PM)
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i find that it's an on-going thing. It never stops, probably because you never stop, either ... or hopefully never.
i find humbleness/humility to be a very gracious state, in myself and in others.
That state alone is very beautiful, and is reason enough to engage in BDSM activities - or do anything to achieve it. It's addictive, and you feel miserable without it. Life is so mundane and pointless without it; you move through the world miserably and truly alone as a function of your own problems.
Yes, there is a SHINE to it, and at it's peak, is nearly tangible, like you could cup your hands and they would be filled with this beatiful, golden, sparkling state of grace from this other person. One of my girlfriends was like this - incredibly - when she would stop trying to be stubborn or witty or smart-assed or competitive or all-the-other-things-nobody-really-wants-to-be, and she just let go and let me love her and fully accepted it all into her. (10 years, and she couldn't see or understand when she was happiest. The alchohol didn't help either - that got real bad.)
Happy. Fulfilled. Satisfied.
State-of-Grace.
i get all messed up in being caught up with myself, which is just too easy for me to fall into. So i tend to need something external to re-align me. Oh, am i thankful for that. "Thank-You, i feel MUCH better now :) "
i feel Human again.
Being bratty, or dispicable in whatever way, is a real sign of misery, is without question 'pushing buttons' to get "re-aligned", and is evidence of someone needing a serious beating, so they can be happy again.
But i have achieved that State as a 'Dom/top', and it is beautiful, still. So i want my Domme to be that way, too. But i'll accept a Domme who can't achieve that State ... because i probably will [:D]
that's so selfish, isn't it?
To me, that's the whole point of everything. There is nothing more beautiful than that, and nothing more beautiful than two people being that way together, and sharing that much beauty and love.
- richard "puppy"
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