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eyesopened -> RE: Anger?? (4/18/2007 2:34:34 AM)
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ORIGINAL: curiouslyseeking
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ORIGINAL: eyesopened
i can honestly say i have never felt anger toward a Dom or Master or play partner but then i tend to internalize, take blame even when unwarranted and otherwise direct negativity toward myself rather than toward others. i can't see where either direction (inward or outward) is beneficial and since i see this flaw in myself i work very hard to find a way to dissapate negativity rather than share it in any direction.
Greetings eyesopened,
But at times, do you not wish to feel something, even if it is a negative emotion, just for the experience?
Are you not curious as to what would bring you to this point and how you would react once there?
Thank you for sharing your thoughts,
~curious~
It's not like i've never felt intense emotions during a scene, but to me, anger is just fear misdirected. i remember one time when i was feeling pissed about the way the Dom was doing things but in my submission i would not express it as anger. Finally the strap really hurt and for the first time in my life i cried because of physical pain and then i could not stop crying and ended up a blubbering, bawling mess. Of course the Dom had no clue what was happening to me or the reason behind my crying but afterward i felt cleansed. However, since the Dom was clueless to what i was feeling, i never saw Him again after that. i have felt enough negative emotions over the course of 54 years. Anger is one emotion that i have never seen turn into a positive event, at least for me.
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