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sweetobedience1 -> too specific and unrealistic? (2/11/2010 6:16:36 PM)
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I feel such a longing for this man I dream of in my head. I've gotten so specific because I daydream so much, and I am beginning to think that having that specific man in my dreams is hindering my chances of finding someone in reality. I, almost desperately sometimes, want a man who is a true leader who makes me become a better person, morally, spiritually, and mentally, etc. I dream of meeting a man who goes to church regularly and realizing while dating him that he wants to be in charge. Then, I want to slowly find that it's more than just being in charge but that he wants to discipline me, make decisions for me, have me respect him like a King or Papa, and that his sexual fantasies are very kinky.
I want him to be fairly new to this Dom/sub thing (I don't mean a virgin necessarily but someone who would never, ever have sex before loving someone and at least considering marriage). I want him to have always been afraid to express his desires, his want to dominate an owned but loved female conflicting with his upbringing and usual way he interacts with people as a gentlemen.
I don't think I could take being with someone who has had many sexual partners...(I've tried that, and I had a miserable time trying to put his past experiences out of my head). However, as wholesome as I want this man to be, I crave the D/s dynamic and, in time, would want him to be very dominant in bed, as well. I need to be in love with someone to be sexual and want to find someone who feels the same way. I think the best summary of what I want is an all-around 1950s man, meaning not only would he like that type of household but also would not want to rush or push the sexual aspect, a real gentlemen as you might picture in a movie from the 50s.
I'm in a rough spot, emotionally. Do you think what I'm asking for is unreasonable or unclear?
Does anyone else feel that they are simply too specific in their search and need to focus on meeting real people a bit more and giving them a chance?
A paraphrased quote from "Son of a Witch" also explains a little of what I want: "She will need a husband with a strong back-hand. Her fanny is begging for a spanking."...in private, of course.
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