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imthatacheyouhav -> RE: Rules, protocol, and the whole ball of wax. (6/7/2007 8:41:56 AM)
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ORIGINAL: mistoferin
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ORIGINAL: slaverosebeauty
I do wholeheartedly believe that the title of 'slave' is earned, NOT given, as it does mean the bar is set higher and more is expected in a relationship from one who is 'a slave.' Their use to be a 'heirarchy' of sorts that listed what the baseline for 'a submissive,' 'a servant,' a slave,' 'a pet' etc were. Its been years since I have seen such a thing, yet I do remember it.
My goal was NEVER to be 'a slave,' I figured out a long time ago that I was more submissve to various types of men, so entering into D/s was a natural progression and place for me, especially when I started to persue older men for relationships, things worked out. I don't look at what I experienced as self-identification, I look at it more as a different way of learning and one that I am greatfull for; things aren't wishy washy as with other I have encountered on the boards. The bar is higher, and I strive for it; just as I set it higher for a potential partner.
My areas of 'formal training' are - basic positioning, cum, ass, spice, obediance, breath control, eye, point, verbal, expectance, oral, manners (including high protocol and 3rd person).
It was like any other training, just done over and over. It was structured, it was extensive it was all inclusive, from the moment I woke up til I finally went to bed, and even then, sleeping was a learned experience, you try having a chain around your ankle, and try to get comfortable, not easy. 48 to 72 hours at a time.
Don't get me wrong, I was allowed to check in with my child and those who were my safe calls, but, things were structured and VERY high protocol. After xyz weekends like that, I earned my title, my view on M/s and on lifestyle changed, I saw things differently, hense my strong views on many things.
I need a refresher course on some things and in some areas, but, right now, I don't see that as an issue; I exceeded expectations this weekend. [:D] I set the bar higher not only for me, but for him as well; I just take this new path and journey as a new chance to learn and to grow. I will be going back over notes, more to get that headspace back, for the moment, I'm not worried, I'm glad we are still talking and on the same page.
I am just beside myself. Here I was wandering through life completely comfortable and thinking I was relatively self aware...and now my very identity is cast into doubt. I never went to weekend slave camp, have no idea what the heck spice, point or expectance training are and have never spoken in the third person. I guess I should be ashamed of myself for ever even entertaining the idea that I could have ever been a slave as surely my absence at training camp and my lack of "formal instruction" in these areas would obviously negate the 25 consecutive years I spent in service, not just on weekends, but every moment of every day. I can see now that I didn't go through the proper channels to earn my title so therefore....my life has been but a lie.
LMAO...nice.....
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