Aswad
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ORIGINAL: MrrPete quote:
"Once you have lost everything, you are free to do anything." - Tyler Durden, Fight Club Sinergy while that sounds good I can tell you from personal experience that it really doesn't work that way at least for me. I lost, essentially, everything to a bitch named Katrina in Sept 05. In the past I've recovered quite well from adversity but not this time, not this time. Guess it depends on what you mean by "everything" and so forth. In what you said, you use the qualifier "essentially", which indicates there is some reservation. In the meaning of the quote, there is no such reservation. It deals with when there is truly nothing, nothing, left that binds you to this world or any course of action. When you have surrendered all hopes and desires, all attachments and values, and you have truly relinquished life in every way except that your body hasn't caught up with your mind yet, then you are well and truly empty in every sense, and also truly free. There is no consequence to any action at this point, nor any desire to initiate one or refrain from doing so. The mind and spirit are empty, yet they exist. I won't go into the details of how that happened for me, or how I gained things again. But I will say that I had nothing to lose. Any course of action would either bring death, which would be no loss, or would gain me something, like an experience for instance. Physical and emotional pain did not register on any level. No worries, no fears, no desires, no hope, it was all a homogenous state of me, and I was free. If Katrina had struck here at that time, I might well have physically stood in "her" way for the joy of experiencing what it was like to be torn apart by "her". Since then, I encountered it in the martial arts, and drew on that particular experience. In the Japanese koryu martial arts, there is a state of mind that one seeks, and among other things it requires this emptiness. It goes by many names, such as mushin and so forth. It is frequently mistranslated as no-mind. My art calls it Fudoshin. That translates very roughly as "immovable essence". In this state, you are dead, in a way. It remains to be seen whether you will live again, and you couldn't care less. Your surroundings will change in some way, for instance through the actions of your opponent. You will change as well, like water flowing around an obstacle. In this state, you are, and that is all there is. Words cannot do it justice. Eventually, you will move on to whatever lies beyond death, or you will decide to return to life. When it happens, and which of the two will be the case, depends on the outcome of the conflict. The resolution is as it is; you did not change it, that's how that conflict has always ended, how it ends now, and how it will always end. Hope that makes some vague amount of sense. It's hard to describe altered states. Either way, it has the added benefit of making it clear to any attacker remotely in control of their faculties that if they haven't yet decided that their reason for attacking is good enough to pay the price, any price, then they'd better go back to the drawing board, because the "person" in front of them is neither worried, nor hesitant to let events take their course. It is also kind of relevant to the OP, with regard to the question of personal experiences. Whether it has anything to do with anything supernatural or not, I couldn't care less. It is what it is. And it is a profound experience, what some would call spiritual.
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"If God saw what any of us did that night, he didn't seem to mind. From then on I knew: God doesn't make the world this way. We do." -- Rorschack, Watchmen.
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