ownedgirlie -> RE: forgetting = disobeying? (6/23/2007 7:53:57 PM)
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ORIGINAL: slaveluci Ownedgirlie, I agree that "disobedience CAN negate ownership." I would simply add that it doesn't necessarily do so. My Master wants me as a slave too and He can rest assured that's what He'll always have. Going "vanilla" is not something that's likely to happen to either of us. Obedience is vital to our relationship. He would be the first to say that He owns an extremely obedient slave in me. The issue that has seemed to be so divisive here is that He has made it clear to me that I am His property permanently. If I were to suddenly become very disobedient for some strange reason, His answer would not be to release me or make me unowned. It would be to do whatever it takes to get back on the same page, so to speak, and get obedience as the norm again. Hi Slaveluci, I understand what you are saying and agree with it, actually. In my case, my slavery is conditional. Yes, if I disobeyed there would be attempts made to bring me back to the norm, as you have stated. I have mentioned earlier in my original post on this thread: "If she (he) is showing a genuine desire and effort to focus on him, and to continue to improve and work for him, he will give her every opportunity in the world to succeed (this does not mean there are not consequences for errors). In Off Topics, KoM began a great thread on words vs. actions. If a slave Master is training professes a deep desire to serve but does little to show it by her conduct (obeying, consistent lack of focus, mouthing off, etc.), she will most certainly begin her path to the exit door." If I choose to not take his opportunity, then I will eventually cease to be his slave. I think we're agreeing on the concept that we both plan to always be true to our nature and therefore slaves to our Masters, and therefore we will always be their slaves. This means to me, however, that his ownership is conditional - conditional that so long as I am a slave to him, I will be owned by him. That's where I was coming from when I made my statements. quote:
I can clearly see how telling a slave you are never going to release them could lead to trouble. A slave who was unscrupulous, manipulative or insincere would take that as a license to act like hell and still feel assured their place was secure. My Master KNOWS beyond a shadow of a doubt that I am not that way. He knows that even unintentional disobedience hurts me because disappointing Him hurts me. He feels comfortable and confident in the knowledge that my behavior is always going to remain such that release won't need to be contemplated. Thus when He declares that release is not an option or something I have to fear, He is 99.9% certain of that. I can see where you're coming from. You are both living with the assumption that your behavior will always reflect your slavery to him and therefore you will always be owned by him. I get that. My Master and I feel the same. Where we differ is that I have been told of this condition. Rather than "you will always be my slave forever" with the assumption that my behavior will always be what it is, he has made conditions clear by saying, "I prefer to own you. And I have no plans to not own you, as long as you continue to behave as you do, and be as pleasing as you are." I believe life is conditional - relationships, love, circumstances, etc. For me, promises of "forever" have little meaning and really do sound like a romantic unreality. You've explained where you're coming from, which makes things much clearer. I relate to what you are saying, as I plan on always belonging to him. I just don't want him to promise me that, nor will he. quote:
There's a wise slave who posts on another board who said something like this: At some point, it finally sank into her head that she was never going anywhere. That she was owned as property and no matter how she might feel like rebelling or acting out due to fear, it wasn't going to change her circumstances. Only when she came to and settled into that realization, was she truly internally enslaved. Release was not ever going to be an option and if she chose to be disobedient, her life was going to get difficult until she decided to behave and make it easier. That has always stuck with me and that is the way my relationship is. It's not that Master wants a disobedient slave. It's that He will own me for good and if I was to become disobedient, measures would be taken to correct that as release is not going to be the solution.........slave luci Boy do I relate to this, and I may have even said it on CM before. There was a time when I had to seriously think about whether I wanted to be his slave or not. I was required to rethink my position with him and to contemplate whether I wanted to be released or not. It was a terribly painful and intense time because I did consider begging for release. And that's when I came to the conclusion that I am here for the duration, and I will always do what it takes to remain here. That I'm not going anywhere, and however difficult his requirements of me may become, I will adjust to them. Since then, I found myself on the road to inner peace and calmness. I finally found myself truly enslaved, as you put it (or the poster you speak of). Asking for my release will not be an option for me as a result, and obedience to all he requires became natural and without consideration. I just don't want to ever take his ownership for granted. I know if I am true to myself, then I will remain his slave, but I don't ever want to stop giving him my best and get lazy about my slavery. I don't think I have it in me to do that, but it is good for me to know the conditions in which I live. I think KoM said it well when he mentioned the slow washing away, a grain at a time. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. It has been a most interesting thread.
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