PanDora1969
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Hi there... A very interesting subject. Scat is 'ewww' to me too, which makes it a lovely device for torture. Since i am addicted to female sadism, i love to fantasize about being subjected to her perversities. I'm not into the classic sub-dom relation, i am a masochist craving for abuse, NOT for serving the mistress. I don't idolize her and i don't feel the need to serve. I want to be overpowered and to struggle and fight her. I want to refuse her orders, be subjected to her anger and recieve the pain and repulsion. and In that sense i'm no average bdsm-joe. The trouble is that my craving makes it impossible to act out on my fantasies, because it's quite unhealthy and harmful. But that's another discussion. Back to scat. Scat disgusts me, like pain frightens me. It's the abuse that makes me so hot. Let me be clear: i have never done it for real. My craving for being abused has lasted for years. The effect of this frustration turned out to be quite surprising. Because i couldn't get what i wanted i started to like the tools of torture. So now i like scat, i like pain. They've become objects of desire in themselves. Apart from all that, i like the sight of a large solid turd emerging from a womans ass. That's because i love female asses and female assholes and there's no better way to enjoy her ass than by watching her spreading buttocks and dilating her anus IN MY FACE. But then of course, videos and pics still lack smell. What would happen if smell could be transferred through the internet. I'd be the first to apply for the subscription! I'm just too curious. I can imagine medical workers not to be so keen on scat as a sexual object. But i don't think they should generalise the object because it's all about context and setting. For this reason gyneacologists can still make love to their spouses. This whole craving of mine reminds me of movies like Hellraiser. I know i shouldn't touch the secret box. I know i've been warned for the consequenses of pushing the buttons, but i still will do it, because there's a part in me that wants to take a trip to hell. Grtz, PD
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