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BeingChewsie -> RE: Update... (10/18/2007 7:52:55 AM)
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You never even saw a pic of this man that you "committed" to? So I'm guessing you never met this man you "committed" to? Is this the same man who didn't have time to meet you that you "committed" to? Is this the same man who wanted you to find him another woman without having met you that you "committed" to? You did everything for man you never saw or met?
Why would you be cyber submitting to pixels on a screen?
...and you wonder why you feel like a fool?
Here is my advice, I'm pretty sure I gave you this advice on another thread if not here you go:
Stop being so desperate for a relationship.
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ORIGINAL: submissfifi
Hi,
Following on from the whole not allowed to contact Sir post. I went to speak with him the day I was supposed to, only to straight away be accused of being a day early, which I was not. He never talked to me about it, why I behaved that way, nothing. Just that did I want to be owned by him, and that he was waiting on me. Well now that really is ironic, when after setting up a fake profile on facebook, to which he denied using, he was flirting with fake me. I always had a vibe I was one of many, and that he was never really that interested.
Next came his profile here, saying how he hadn't meet that someone, and hoped to find it here. How very charming, two weeks no contact with me, whilst he resumes his search for that someone! It gets better, when I asked, note the word asked, not confronted, apparently someone had logged in and changed his profile, how bizzare, and then he said he hasn't used it in months, well thats funny he was looking at my profile 3 days ago, and oh look he logged in a few hours ago too. Wow that hacker is good. I mean come on, credit me with some intelligence, yeah I maybe submissive sexually, but I'm not stupid. Oh I will change it, I will delete it, well there was last night to do that, and first thing this morning when he logged in! Yet it still remains.
Then theres sending fake me a photo in a dare via facebook, something which I had asked from him for months, yet a complete stranger on facebook gets it straight away. Theres going on a diet, theres exercising for him, theres doing everything I possible could for him, theres investing my time and energy in him, theres the fact I commited to him. Yet all along I was played. Yeah yell at me for entrapment, or underhand tatics, but was I wrong? no I wasn't? He was never interested in me, never even attracted to me, being describe in a photograph as summery really didn't cut it either.
Theres the whole speech about how a relationship should be built on honesty. I was always honest with him, (yeah mention the fake profile) but the whole reason the fake profile exisit was because I couldn't bare two weeks without talking to him. Yeah pathetic, sad, old me. What a sucker hey. And if you all think for one minute I'm happy, I'm not. A guy, a dominat guy that I was very attracted to, who I did everything I could possibly do for, who I had commited too, has broken my trust, my respect,but most importantly my heart.
And not one word of an apology.
So I know he maybe few and far between. But why do I feel such a fool?
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