Pavel
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Joined: 1/10/2005 From: Washington Status: offline
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Upon reflection, I think it has to do a bit more with just how things in life are changeing. When I turned 21 the future really didn't have a plan or a route, I was freshly freed of some obligations, I had a girlfriend I was rather involved with, and what red blooded American doesn't look foward to being 21 (well I wasn't extra enthused, but it wasn't bad)? At 22, the future just gained quite a bit more direction/long term comitment (although to be fair it's in a direction I like), I'm single, but I know what to avoid next time, and 21 wasn't really that exciteing anyways. The conclusion that I came to is every birthday I've had to this point has been kind of a progressive series of steps towards a future, a goal, somthing that never is really quite there. Transitions to high school, then college just shifted what I was aiming for, and it was just like prepareing for somthing that's supposed to be around the corner. With 22, while I've still got years at school (well two), it's like I've reached the point where it's not really etherial goals and the like, but pressing onwards to things I can feel, touch and see. So I suppose it's a shift from birthdays being hope/orientation towards a distant future, to more steps/milestones on a journey to what I want from life. If that makes any sense at all.
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