TheMsScarlet
Posts: 47
Joined: 10/7/2007 From: London - Bristol - Surrey Status: offline
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I could rant on this thread for months. I not only have one of those days, I have one of those lives. Right now I'm nursing a cat through cancer knowing that I'll have to have him put down on Monday because he's in pain and his throat is being closed by a tumour. Earlier this year I lost another cat to chronic renal failure because of a mis-diagnosis by a vet who shouldn't even be allowed to practice. Last year my partner had TB and nearly died on me. The year before that my mother died of lung cancer and my father suffered nephritis. The year before that I buried 26 people, starting with a cousin and her baby on New Years Day and finishing with my grandfather on Christmas day, compounded by my partner of 5 years running off with the next door neighbours wife. In 2000 I was flooded out of my home and it was destroyed and I was forced to move. I think it's called living in "interesting times" I'd like to say that I've had a rare few years, but I haven't. It's always been this way. It's taught me some huge lessons, like if it doesn't have a pulse, it isn't worth worrying about. Like life goes on regardless. Like the tears we cry are only a sign of how much love we felt and how much joy was shared. Like wake up every day and count your blessings not your curses. Because you'll be suprised at how many you have. So now, when I have a rant day I do that. I've had 15 years with a beautiful cat that should have been dead at 5. I've got a wonderful, supportive partner who loves me very much. I have a secure roof over my head. I have a father who loves me and spoils me rotten. I have another cat who is simply magnificent. I have food in my kitchen, clothes on my back, my bills are all paid, my limbs are all working (for a chanage!), I've a working computer on my desk, friends who would rally round at 4 in the morning if I needed them. I am at the start of an amazing new business which is all mine to do with as I please. I have a warm, safe bed to sleep in at night with the arms of the man I love to wrap around me. When you go through a list like that, it's hard to rant.
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Mistress Scarlet
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