xoxi
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I guess I'm kinkier than I realized then But I can always schedule a return flight if I need one - I know I won't be stranded. Really though I know my man enough to feel safe doing so. Anyone else will see him as just an internet person, some guy who could be a predator, or who could be a total dork that will make me want to vomit, but I just see him as the man I adore. I can't possibly defend my choice to anyone who doesn't know my man as well as I do - and anyone who did wouldn't ask me why I was doing it. Yes I'm nervous about this...I hate flying, I've never left the States, I'm going to miss Thanksgiving with my family (they don't even HAVE that in Australia but I want to cook him a little turkey because I feel we have a lot to be thankful for), and the sheer weight of knowing that if this works, I will spend the rest of my life with this man - I've been hyper emotional the past couple weeks, ever since we booked the flight. I'm freaking SCARED and I would be dumb not to be. But I have a good feeling about this, and my instincts are generally spot on. I know deep in my heart that the worst thing that could happen is that we aren't compatible and I go home with a broken heart and have to explain things to my family and friends - quite a blow to my pride but hardly life threatening. With technology what it is now - skype, voice chat, webcams, etc., a first meeting isn't a blind date anymore. There's no wondering if he took his profile pic in 1998 or if he has an annoying nasal voice or a goofy smile. I've even watched him on his cam at work, just watching him talk to a coworker and do stuff, it was SO cute to just see him in his 'natural habitat' so to speak. I might be young, foolish and a total romantic but I really want to give this man everything...and that includes trying my best to make this work.
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