|
LaTigresse -> RE: Happy Birthday To Me (11/20/2009 7:37:46 AM)
|
quote:
ORIGINAL: Sanity
Its my birthday again today, I'm 47 now.
I never drink and I never use drugs any more, but I sure am high tonight. Its really good high, too. Two years ago when I wrote the OP to this thread I was feeling black, but I've been climbing up out of that ever since and I owe some of that to inspiration that I have found right here from some of you, and so I want to thank all of you you for that, the good, the bad, and the ugly too.
I quit smoking several years back, and started exercising. I try to watch what I eat... and its all paying off too. I'm confident that I can out run or out climb or out fight most men half my age right now. Things are coming together for me, I am maturing, and I'm getting things sorted out. Life is hard, don't get me wrong, but its good for me right now. I had a birthday kiss from someone very special today, a first time kiss, to follow with my kind of date, our kind of date... [;)] this coming weekend.
I'm getting all kinds of positive feedback like that from most every direction, and it is nice...
I am finding some direction, and finally really moving on past some of the bad times I've experienced in my life that were unbelievably ugly. I can't believe I've made it this far, looking back at the way I once lived. But today I am glad I did make it this far, I sucked it up or caught that miracle when it was do or die and I pulled through.
Yeah, things are better for me today, and I am really looking forward now. Happy Birthday to me!
quote:
ORIGINAL: Sanity
Hooray, I'm 45 today. Another year closer to death... whoopee.
I'll eat the mandatory ice cream and cake, then go about my normal daily routine, only with a little bit of the added sadness caused by the growing feeling that this cruel world is spinning faster and faster with each passing moment. Soon I will be gone. Have you ever felt that way, that as you age time itself speeds up...
My hair becomes ever grayer, and I look slightly more like the crypt keeper with every passing moment. The endless black void races up to swallow me, stalking me and mocking me with its fast growing presence.
Born only to die, how interesting. I raise an eyebrow. What is the use of it all. Sure, I've successfully passed my genes on so that there's a part of me that may continue on for as long as the planet does, but after a time... everything shall die.
If there is a higher meaning, then I can see that there could be some use for this existence, but if there is no spirituality - what is there to keep me from committing extreme evil for selfish reasons. Why live out my life in mediocraty... why. I call out and there is no answer... only the wind.
Who doesn't have a dark side that looks at these things? Indeed, happy birthday to me.
I hope you had a wonderful birthday and I am glad to read of your journey. Yes it does seem like time goes faster. But it's all good.
We simply have to try and enjoy every moment of it.
|
|
|
|
