Collarspace Discussion Forums


Home  Login  Search 

RE: A hole in my heart


View related threads: (in this forum | in all forums)

Logged in as: Guest
 
All Forums >> [Community Discussions] >> General BDSM Discussion >> RE: A hole in my heart Page: <<   < prev  1 2 [3]
Login
Message << Older Topic   Newer Topic >>
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/3/2007 4:42:11 AM   
sweetNsmartBBW


Posts: 167
Joined: 5/16/2007
Status: offline 		I am so sorry for your loss. 

< Message edited by sweetNsmartBBW -- 12/3/2007 4:50:59 AM >

_____________________________

There are two kinds of strengths: the strength to lead, and the strength to follow; the strength to control, and the strength to yield. There are two kinds of power: the power to strip away another's soul bare, and the power to stand naked. Yaldah Tova

(in reply to JinxsAria)
Profile   Post #: 41
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/3/2007 4:42:46 AM   
Knite64


Posts: 10
Joined: 9/5/2007
Status: offline 		My sympathies to both you and your friends Master for the loss of someone so special to you both. 

(in reply to HalloweenWhite)
Profile   Post #: 42
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/3/2007 8:56:45 AM   
angelikaJ


Posts: 8641
Joined: 6/22/2007
Status: offline 		I am so sorry.

(in reply to mistoferin)
Profile   Post #: 43
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/3/2007 9:55:33 AM   
Mercnbeth


Posts: 11766
Status: offline
quote:

...She accepted me with all of my flaws, encouraged me in all of my endeavors, supported me in all of my moments of weakness or sorrow...and never once stood in judgment of me...


what a beautiful tribute, erin.  warmest thoughts and wishes and hopes that your memories give you some comfort at this time.
hugs!!!

(in reply to mistoferin)
Profile   Post #: 44
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/3/2007 10:08:11 AM   
LadyPact


Posts: 32566
Status: offline
quote:

ORIGINAL: mistoferin

I lost one of my dearest friends today, she passed away suddenly. She was only 37 years old. She was a beautiful human being, a woman who was so full of life...so full of love. She was as tough as nails and as soft as butter. She walked many dark roads in her lifetime and had come to find peace and light in her service to her Master...the love of her life. She was devoted and proud in her slavery. She was one of a scarce few people in this world who really, really understood me...who I could be completely bare in front of. She accepted me with all of my flaws, encouraged me in all of my endeavors, supported me in all of my moments of weakness or sorrow...and never once stood in judgment of me. She brought so much to my life and we shared so much laughter, so much joy. She knew me in ways that no one else ever has...and shared herself with me in those same ways. I took it for granted that she would always just be there...and I will miss her immensely. I think there will always be a hole in my heart....

I know that losing someone we love is always a hard thing to bear regardless of whether or not they are in this lifestyle or not. But it feels different somehow because of our common orientation. Have you ever felt the void that someone in the lifestyle leaves differently?




I was just responding to a thread on another board on this matter.  Yes, I think it does.

_____________________________

The crowned Diva of Destruction. ~ ExT

Beach Ball Sized Lady Nuts. ~ TWD

Happily dating a new submissive. It's official. I've named him engie.

Please do not send me email here. Unless I know you, I will delete the email unread

(in reply to mistoferin)
Profile   Post #: 45
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/3/2007 11:48:17 AM   
stella41b


Posts: 4258
Joined: 10/16/2007
From: SW London (UK)
Status: offline 		I'm so sorry to hear about your loss.

My thoughts were on this only this week. December 10 will be the second anniversary after Dagmara left my circle of friends. Dagmara was 23, a pre-op TS female, living in Warsaw, she was only about 5ft 6ins, had her own blonde hair, she was an exception, as she was working in an office as a woman, she had a wonderful male partner. I got to see her for the last time about a week before I left Poland. She was telling me about her first Christmas as a woman with her parents, of coming out. She bought presents, everything. She went home, it went pear-shaped, her father threw her out of the house and told her never to come back. Dagmara took her own life.

She gave me some advice... best illustrated as follows...

"Never wait or hesitate
Get in kid, before it's too late
You may never get another chance
'Cos youth a mask but it don't last
live it long and live it fast" Rod Stewart, 'The Killing of Georgie'

These are the words that come to mind whenever I'm in a difficult situation. She left behind the question 'why?' which I will never be able to answer. The memory of her gives me as much strength now as it did when she was alive.

This is all I can offer to respond to your OP mist, and offer as (hopefully) some sort of comfort. Time heals, it takes time, and that space will never really be filled. People can come into your life suddenly and they can leave just as suddenly too. But you know, she did come into your life, and she shared her life with you, and accepted you, and she wouldn't want you to be unhappy. One of the most beautiful things about life is that people can give you so much and you can give so much back and together you create such wonderful memories from which you can find happiness and strength when they're no longer around. And they can do this because friendship and love come from the Soul, that part of us which is above life and death. Therefore I'd like to suggest that although your friend can no longer be with you, your friendship with her is still as strong today as it ever was. Please take comfort in this to help you come to terms with your loss, and remember.

In sympathy

stella

_____________________________

CM's Resident Lyricist
also Facebook
http://stella.baker.tripod.com/
50NZpoints
Q2
Simply Q

(in reply to mistoferin)
Profile   Post #: 46
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/3/2007 1:51:58 PM   
mistoferin


Posts: 8284
Joined: 10/27/2004
Status: offline 		stella, thank you, that was very comforting.

Thank you to all who have responded, it is greatly appreciated.

_____________________________

Peace and light,
~erin~

There are no victims here...only volunteers.

When you make a habit of playing on the tracks, you thereby forfeit the right to bitch when you get hit by a train.

"I did it! I admit it and I'm gonna do it again!"

(in reply to stella41b)
Profile   Post #: 47
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/3/2007 2:23:48 PM   
LaTigresse


Posts: 26123
Joined: 1/15/2006
Status: offline 		Dear Erin,

I am so sorry for you. Losing someone so close, such a part of your soul, is a pain that words just cannot describe. There is no shortcut through the grief. To try and find one only prolongs it. Embrace your loss for it reflects the wonder of what you shared with your friend. Some people never have that connection with another person.

My jemma has been gone for many months now and the ache is still there. I think, to a degree, it always will be. I don't see it as a bad thing, just a reminder of what we shared. I was a lucky woman to have her in my life for the time I did. I think she will always be with me.

I feel like we always maintain a connection to those we love, even after they leave this physical realm. They remain a part of us.

< Message edited by LaTigresse -- 12/3/2007 2:24:14 PM >

_____________________________

My twisted, self deprecating, sense of humour, finds alot to laugh about, in your lack of one!

Just because you are well educated, articulate, and can use big, fancy words, properly........does not mean you are right!

(in reply to mistoferin)
Profile   Post #: 48
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/3/2007 4:41:55 PM   
Twicehappy2x


Posts: 1096
Joined: 3/27/2007
Status: offline 		Ah...erin..my friend, my heart mourns for your loss. If you need anything just call.
 
Here is a poem from a book i love, it always reminds of those loved and lost.
 
"My heart has rooms that sigh with dust
And ashes in the hearth.
They must be cleaned and blown away
By daylight's breath.
But I cannot essay the task,
For even dust to me is dear;
For dust and ashes still recall,
My love was here

"I know not how to say Farewell,
When Farewell is the word
That stays alone for me to say
Or will be heard.
But I cannot speak out that word
Or ever let my loved one go
How can I bear it that these rooms
Are empty so?

"I sit among the dust and hope
That dust will cover me.
I stir the ashes in the hearth,
Though cold they be.
I cannot bear to close the door,
To seal my loneliness away
While dust and ashes yet remain
Of my love's day."



_____________________________

The human heart is not a finite container but an ever expanding universe with all the stars contained there in.

(in reply to mistoferin)
Profile   Post #: 49
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/3/2007 5:11:56 PM   
LATEXBABY64


Posts: 2107
Joined: 4/8/2004
Status: offline 		Many hugs sorry for your loss.

(in reply to Twicehappy2x)
Profile   Post #: 50
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/3/2007 5:19:07 PM   
PsyVamp


Posts: 1026
Joined: 10/30/2006
Status: offline 		I'd just like to offer my condolences. 
Although it may not be face to face, you have a lot of us to yell and scream and cry to if you need.

Lady Jag.. (Psy)

_____________________________

Don't take life too seriously; No one gets out alive. .
Could a blue screen of death constitute being defenestrated?
~Owner of wolf~ (one of them, anyway)

(in reply to mistoferin)
Profile   Post #: 51
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/3/2007 7:04:47 PM   
mistoferin


Posts: 8284
Joined: 10/27/2004
Status: offline
quote:

ORIGINAL: Twicehappy2x
If you need anything just call.


You're such an awesome friend, I love ya! Thank you for the poem, I loved it. And you're probably gonna get sick of me calling ya.

_____________________________

Peace and light,
~erin~

There are no victims here...only volunteers.

When you make a habit of playing on the tracks, you thereby forfeit the right to bitch when you get hit by a train.

"I did it! I admit it and I'm gonna do it again!"

(in reply to Twicehappy2x)
Profile   Post #: 52
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/3/2007 7:10:39 PM   
KnightofMists


Posts: 7149
Joined: 7/29/2005
Status: offline 		First... very sorry for the loss of your kindered spirit.

Second... I never experienced the lost of what you discribe of someone within this lifestyle or out.  I have experienced losses... but they didn't have significant connection to me.  I suspect that no matter what lifestyle they live... it will be their significance to me that will influence the feelings of loss.  There is actually very few that are deeply connected to me... a very few individuals that are in or out of the lifestyle.... I don't look forward to those experiences.. even thou I very much expect to have to deal with some, most if not all of them before it is my time to go

_____________________________

Knight of Mists

An Optimal relationship is achieved when the individuals do what is best for themselves and their relationship.

(in reply to mistoferin)
Profile   Post #: 53
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/3/2007 7:28:07 PM   
LilMinxy1


Posts: 114
Joined: 11/28/2007
Status: offline 		I am so sorry for your loss.  You were lucky to have a friend like her, but she was also lucky.  She had you!  What you have written is proof that she made an impact on your life.  That's what were here for!
In this time of pain, just try to remember that you gave her the best gift you could.  You were her friend.  And now you have given her another gift!  In telling us all about her beauty as a person, you have ensured that she lives on forever, in all of our memories.  And you have given us a gift.  You have reminded us of the kind of friend we need to be, and the kind of friend we deserve to have.
She hears you, so keep talking. 
All my sympathy.  My heart is with you.
~Love and Light My Sweet~

(in reply to mistoferin)
Profile   Post #: 54
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/3/2007 7:50:43 PM   
lilgurrl


Posts: 8
Joined: 8/31/2007
Status: offline 		Sorry for your loss, Erin.  It sounds like a beautiful friendship.

Wishing you peace.

(in reply to LilMinxy1)
Profile   Post #: 55
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/4/2007 3:53:07 AM   
Twicehappy2x


Posts: 1096
Joined: 3/27/2007
Status: offline
quote:

ORIGINAL: mistoferin

And you're probably gonna get sick of me calling ya.


Never gonna happen hon, i love you too.

_____________________________

The human heart is not a finite container but an ever expanding universe with all the stars contained there in.

(in reply to mistoferin)
Profile   Post #: 56
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/4/2007 8:52:16 AM   
SweetSarijane


Posts: 3788
Joined: 10/7/2005
From: KC area Missouri
Status: offline 		My heartfelt sympathies and condolences to you and your friend's Master on your loss. Remember that while she may be physically gone, she will ever live on in your heart and the memories you treasure.

_____________________________

Sarah2
Deviant Mind
Wild Side Readers KCSass

(in reply to Twicehappy2x)
Profile   Post #: 57
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/4/2007 2:35:53 PM   
mistoferin


Posts: 8284
Joined: 10/27/2004
Status: offline 		Thank you all so much for your warm thoughts. They have helped me a lot. It is a busy time with all of the arrangements that must be made. I have been searching poetry and trying to figure out how to write a eulogy. I've never had to be quite this involved in a funeral before. I'm very glad that it doesn't happen often.

_____________________________

Peace and light,
~erin~

There are no victims here...only volunteers.

When you make a habit of playing on the tracks, you thereby forfeit the right to bitch when you get hit by a train.

"I did it! I admit it and I'm gonna do it again!"

(in reply to SweetSarijane)
Profile   Post #: 58
RE: A hole in my heart - 12/4/2007 2:44:34 PM   
Kana


Posts: 6676
Joined: 10/24/2006
Status: offline 		My the joy of her memeory
outweigh the friend losts
and remember always that though we shall never see them more in  this world of tears in which we dwell
that their spirit will linger in our own
beating aside our own

(in reply to mistoferin)
Profile   Post #: 59
Page:   <<   < prev  1 2 [3]
All Forums >> [Community Discussions] >> General BDSM Discussion >> RE: A hole in my heart Page: <<   < prev  1 2 [3]
Jump to:





New Messages No New Messages
Hot Topic w/ New Messages Hot Topic w/o New Messages
Locked w/ New Messages Locked w/o New Messages
 Post New Thread
 Reply to Message
 Post New Poll
 Submit Vote
 Delete My Own Post
 Delete My Own Thread
 Rate Posts




Collarchat.com © 2025
Terms of Service Privacy Policy Spam Policy

0.094