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goodgirl85 -> Would you want to know? (12/8/2007 8:35:03 PM)
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In order to tell the story I need to tell to ask what I want to ask I have to give a little back story. Ill try and make it as short as possible. I met my first dom a few years ago. We finally met in Janurary 2006. Things were great, for awhile. Then they went south. Bad times. Cheating ensues, and I hang on because I was so completly 100% head over heels, without hestion would say yes if he asked me to marry him (not kinda girl who believes in marriage). I am released, but still have enough hope to agree to go and see him a few times afterwards. Last time there while cleaning his house, I found a reciept for jewelry. I assumed it was for another girl. He didnt correct me when I told him about it. Last straw for me, i tell him im not going up anymore. This was in feb. 07.
He still wants to be friend, I try until he tells me he thinks he is in love with this girl. I say i need time. I cry myself to sleep every night, I start drinking, and doing other things not actually any form of healthy for me. I finally get over him enough to start talking to him. I move on. We talk every few weeks, just a hey how are you sort of thing. I start seeing someone. He tells me he thinks he might his girlfriend to marry him. Hurts a bit but i get over it fast. Things are going good with the guy i am seeing. He treats me like gold, and really has my best interest in heart when making decisions for me.him.us.
Then out of the blue I get a message from the old Dom, (lets just call him D1 and my new Dom D2) telling me that he wants me to come Domme him, and hurt and humilate him for dumping me. This is the first I ever hear of him being a switch. He had told me he was a sub for a short while, but that it didnt work out. He begs me, actually begs me to come 2 him. And tells me that he lied to me about cheating, that he never did. And that the jewelry reciept was jewlery for his mom, and that he planted it there, knowing I would clean his house and see it. His reason: beign scared of getting to serious.
He claims he wants me back. Sounded sincere on the phone. But still doesnt want to get real serious and doesnt want to hurt me again. Now, when I say I was hurt, Im not lying. I was in physical pain I hurt so bad. I lost 15 lbs in two weeks because I couldn't eat. I had a mental breakdown.
Im not leaving D2. He is so good to me. treats me right. wants more than sex from me. He is honest with me, sweet, kind, caring. Has the thought crossed my mind of what would happen if I did leave him and take a chance on D1. Yes it has. My answer is still the same. Don't leave D2.
Now my question is, should I tell him that my ex wants me back? Should I tell him my feelings, thoughts and concerns on the subject? Or should I just not mention it? And Yes, He does know, or should know anyways, that I still talk to B1 from time to time.
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