adoracat -> RE: "protect the property" (12/15/2007 9:23:13 PM)
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~~fast reply after reading the thread~~ Daddy refers to me as his most precious property. and yes, i'm semi disabled, and yes, i have very bad days at times. an i have times when i am pushing myself FAR too hard, and i find my ass in a sling with him, because i am NOT protecting his property when i wear myself to a frazzle, end up having seizures and not being able to control my fine motor movements, fall down from exhaustion (literally) and generally be useless as tits on a boar. at those times, i am ordered to take care of myself, even if it means not talking with him for a couple of days as long as i keep him informed with a brief email. (we dont share a household). if we DID share a household, he would be telling me the same things, that i need to rest and take better care of myself. if i dont take care of his property....how can i serve him? and yes, that is a literal quote from his own lips. and that does include the issues i have with controlling the urge to self injure...i am under orders to do no deliberate harm to myself, that i am to take care of myself which includes getting adequate sleep even if i miss talking with him, and that i am to ask for help when i need it. (i struggle with that last one!!!) kitten, whose Daddy was amused at my bitching about those standing orders....
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