GreedyTop -> RE: BDSM SNOBS (1/25/2008 3:03:15 PM)
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ORIGINAL: Prinsexx dear Maya i understood what you said and i agree with your experience of collarme. For me it was just a great place to be and i had become disillusioned completely with alt and bondage and informed consent. I look forward to posting here and i love both the hard knocks (wonder why lol) and the support and the differing opinions and probably most of all the humour which on dark days lifts me. i have actually met some excellent people in real time through collarme and felt that i could be open and expose myself here. Only once thus far have i been 'outted' and had boundaries crossed. But this is a difficult medium, this cyber posting thing and there are cultural differences too which mean that i cannot be certain i have caught the correct tone or intention within a post. I can be flip, and arrogant and yet sometimes serious and eloquent....just as in real life. But it is more tempting to be flippant here as there are no real consequences other than to not read the whole of a reply. i don't care if others see me as experienced or mot. i don't need to prove i am experinced. I believe my body is my channel, my skill, my body is my whip, my cane, my equipment, my ropes, my cage. My body is what He owns and my body ages chronologically just like anyone else's. However when i say my experience i do not mean i refer to my past. When i say my experience i refer to my NOW. And so it makes no sense whatsoever to say i have had half a decade of experience. It is what i am experiencing right now which is what is most valueable to me and is a marker of what i have learned. Right now i am coming down from an intense scene. i hurt, and i miss Him and already, from only two days ago, it is too long ago and i want to do that intensity again and then again do it more right now if i could. But you know there's jobs, and house stuff and unmentionablers, and domestic shores and family and writing and cooking and yaddah yaddah....does that also count as experience? because without all of that i wouldn't be holding myself together, body, heart, mind and soul. Even He can't do that. beautifully written, Prinsexx :) and *hugs* for missing Him...
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