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Disease engraves and life change - 2/9/2008 2:27:41 AM

catia

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I had a cancer that was very difficult to live. Since, I know that one can die. Since my pshychologie changed.
Become the permanent slave of a woman, of a couple or of a family became a priority in my life, just as to live in woman in permanence and to be confined and train hard. This is my dream since the adolescence. Certain shock in life transforms us deeply.
I do not know if I all must abandon to change life.
I have again fear but I know that it is irretrievable and that I was born slave and trans....
I need assistance and of counsels
Thanks
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RE: Disease engraves and life change - 2/9/2008 2:59:31 AM

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You should always enjoy life....sadly for most people a "bad" thing must happen to make them see it.
Life gets more precious in time. The last 5 years..afther I slowly lost all my family..started to live the way I want....to enjoy it..to do as I feel too.

I am not sure how "ïll" you are or what your life expectancy is..but you at least should tell your owner about it. Stepping in once life...in your situation..and then be gone one day..is a punch in the face.
But besides that.. I advise you to enjoy...be yourself..but keep thinking,

< Message edited by Justme696 -- 2/9/2008 3:00:24 AM >

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RE: Disease engraves and life change - 2/9/2008 3:42:55 AM

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I am a cancer survivor. And let me tell you, it has taken a lot longer to heal from the psychological and emotional devastation than it did the physcial devastation. Often, not always, when one is facing a life threatening illness, many people actually run away from you and it can become VERY isolating. And it seems the ones closest to you are often the ones who run the fastest and hardest. The 3 closest people in my life at that time are the ones who ran the hardest and pretty much deserted me emotionally, and physically. And this is not unique to me. It happens quite often to cancer patients because people are afraid they can't handle being around you if you die.
In any event, I have been isolating a lot over the past few years just trying to heal from all the emotional and psychological trauma of the abandonment and lack of humanity I was counting on. Other than that it has made my spiritual views even stronger. They were pretty strong before and that is probably the only thing that got me through. One thing I learned that no matter how well planned you think you have your life, it can be all be wiped out like an unexpected smack across the face. Long term goals and planning for the future no longer have the same meaning to me.
Carpe diem.
When I thought I was not going to make it through, I said to myself...gee, all my passions in life have all been set aside in the past to raise my child, take care of my mother till her death, take care of my father till his death, going to school for degree, trying to move my career forward. And, when I asked my self how much time in my life I had really spent doing what I love, there was almost none. I love to paint, write, play/write music. I am now doing those things and have found a new sense of self that I haven't had in a loooooooooooong time.
And, I have finally come out of the woodwork to find a new slave. I have put that off for 5 years to heal myself.
But, I'm back. Look out. I'm still kicking and this ol' world hasn't shut me down yet!!!
My priorities and what I will sacrafice for the "future" have changed dramatically.
You have my full support, catia!! And if you EVER need someone to talk to that has been there and understands, please feel free to mail me on the other side.
*blowskiss* and may the light shine upon you!!

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RE: Disease engraves and life change - 2/9/2008 4:19:58 AM

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Thanks Mistress
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RE: Disease engraves and life change - 2/9/2008 4:26:14 AM

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RE: Disease engraves and life change - 2/9/2008 4:49:58 AM

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Avec plaisir!!!

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RE: Disease engraves and life change - 2/9/2008 4:02:27 PM

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I am not a cancer survivior...I can`t relate having the disease.

I speant some yrs as a hospice volunteer...man y beat the so called *odds* for years!

Chin up, sweety....press forward into your dreams.

Talk....find a support group, etc...

May He bless you above and beyond all you may think or ask....

D

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RE: Disease engraves and life change - 2/10/2008 5:07:29 PM

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I was diagnosed and operated on for ovarian cancer 25 years ago was a single mom of a toddler at the time, It scared the hell out of me thinking I would not be around to see my child grow up and wondering what would happen to him and who would be his caretaker. I am still here continue to raise my child to adulthood and now have 2 grandchildren, my brother ended up with prostate cancer five years later was treated and went on to father 2 children and is still doing very well

cancer research has skyrocketed in the past 25 years the odds of beating cancer now is 200 times better than it was 25 years agonew newer techniques, treatment options , earlier diagnosis, and more advanced surgical techniques to reduce the physical trauma and today doctors go into indepth discussions which they did not do then as the odds of surviving was not as high and they felt at that time it was not in the best interest of the patient to discuss for the patient it was scary since they had no idea of what to expect and back then hope was very grim as it was rare to hear of cancer survivors, the cancer society also provides volunteer cancer survivors to talk to you and will offer help with transportation to surgeries or treatment if necessary and be a hand to hold onto berfore and after surgery, contact them if you find yourself needing support. and good luck

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