Valyraen -> RE: When did You realize You were a Master? (2/13/2008 8:25:23 AM)
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I feel like there's way too much tied up in the word "Master" to really be comfortable with using it to describe myself, outside of flippant disregard. An enormous amount of subtext, implication, and suggestion that simply just doesn't apply to me. Maybe at some point later on in life I'll get comfortable with the notion of being called "Master V", but not yet. Born dominant? Maybe, for some folks... and maybe not for others. When most folks meet Kitten and I, they usually think that she's the dom and I'm the sub, because I'm quiet and I take a while to warm up to people - not to beat around the damn bush too much, because I'm shy. I've just about always been shy, except when I was too young to really have much self-consciousness. I definitely wouldn't say that I was born dominant - in my first serious (vanilla) relationship, I was actually much more the submissive one. Dominance didn't come without a great deal of soul-searching on my part, making sure that I was comfortable with actually inflicting pain on another human being (art or fantasy is one thing, but fantasies don't bleed if you don't want them to). When I finally got comfortable with the idea, it came with the caveat that I would never take myself too seriously - and judging from my sigline, I don't think I have yet.
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