julietsierra
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ORIGINAL: julietsierra But hey Choco...I just noticed your posting count. I take that to mean you've not read a lot of what I've posted in other threads...So, I'll answer your question a bit more directly. The games he plays with me. He plays "abandon the slave" allll the time. It hurts like hell during the game, but in the end, we both win. He plays "masturbation? What's this thing you call masturbation?" I haven't been allowed to do that in five and a half years now. Along with that, he plays "WOW AM I BUSY!" This means that he loads a ton of stuff on his plate so that the time he spends with me - at times - is very limited. Let me see...right now - today, it's been three months since we've had any sex (see the game above to understand how that relates). Yes, we've played but sex is a very important part of both our lives. I'm not exactly complacent about this, but if I complain, it'll only take longer for the game to be over. So I get to simply wait and be supportive of what he's doing right now. I can voice that I'm getting antsy (just about the biggest understatement of the year right now), but no complaining about what he's doing. We also play "Mind Torture." This is a nifty little game that takes every single one of my insecurities and makes them an integral part of his toybag - kinda like when you were young and your big brother would try to poke at bruises and tease you when you got in trouble - just cause he could and just cause he knew it would hurt. My bruises involve my emotions and every bit of my baggage. This little game involves me being at my most vulnerable and him using every one of my own insecurities to make me cringe and cry more than a little. And when I say I can't take any more, he says "Let me see if I understand. You say you're feeling... tortured?" And I can't help it. I laugh and laugh and laugh, saying YES! I'm feeling tortured!!" And his response is to laugh right along with me while he gleefully says "GOOOD!!! Thank you! You've made my day!!" And yep... I love ALL of these games - even if they OFTEN make me cry. They're ALL fun to me. Now... with games like these, tell me again why I am playing with dice? Hell, I'm too busy playing what we enjoy. I really really don't have time or energy for dice, cards and "name that implement." juliet Hard for me to imagine anyone enjoying the "Wow am I busy" game, but I can certainly see the draw of the rest of them. Can you throw me a link so I can get a better idea of what "Abandon the Slave" consists of? I absolutely LOVE watching him get thrilled by a new project. How it takes over his thoughts and actions. How he gives it his all. If that means I'm waiting, then I'm waiting. Sometimes the waiting's difficult. That's when I breathe a bit and remember the gleam in his eye as he talks about his project. And that's when I remember how much I enjoy the WOW AM I BUSY game. Right now, he's working his job, starting a new company, involved with a number of community organizations, has two other jobs he does on a part time basis and is taking a class. His eyes just light up at the whole thing. The links to Abandon the Slave...I really don't recall, but it was relatively recent and in response to someone who was having difficulties feeling abandoned by her Master. juliet
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