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ORIGINAL: ChainedExistence

Sometimes what is happening sort of puts you on emotional overload. You aren't necessarily crying from pain or sadness or fear, but you just get physically and emotionally overwhelmed.  

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Heck, I've cried before because it was so incredibly awesome.

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As for it being scary... Are you afraid your tears might stop what is happening?

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Does it feel like a sign of weakness?

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Do you think it means you aren't handling the pain the way he might want?

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I've sometimes tried to stop myself from crying because of some self-imposed ideal of what a good slave should be.

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Crying can be a great release, and a bonding experience.

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ORIGINAL: charmdpetKeira

No, really; it’s something I have an urge to do while in a session with my owner, but I don’t know why; except for perhaps emotional release. I think there is more to it then that though.
 
Furthermore, I don’t know how. I have tried to think of reasons why I would cry during a session; none of the reasons I’ve come up with seem to mesh with why I might want it. Does it matter for you?

 
Also, if you have any thoughts on why the idea of wanting to cry in a session might be scary; I’d appreciate it.
 
Best wishes,
 
k

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ORIGINAL: sunshinemiss

Crying is very intimate, it's letting go.... In doing wiitwd, it is natural to want emotional release - whether that is a deep belly laugh, intense orgasm, or tears. 

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As for scary:  well, crying is very intimate, it makes our skin blotchy, difficult to breathe, out of control, etc.  Maybe one of these just isn't your cup of tea.

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Or maybe crying is linked to something ugly in your mind or experience. We are very vulnerable when we cry and therefore easily convinced of what we are told.  This level of vulnerability might be troublesome to you also...  If you can let yourself experience and then write about it or talk about it after, you might find some truth.

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I read your profile.  Your journal entries suggest a certain discomfort with deep expression (not wanting to roar for example)  Perhaps it is more than crying?  *smiles*

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Be patient with yourself.  You will roar... and cry... a little at a time... or perhaps all at once.

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ORIGINAL: charmdpetKeira

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ORIGINAL: ChainedExistence

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I've sometimes tried to stop myself from crying because of some self-imposed ideal of what a good slave should be.

If you don’t mind saying; why were you crying?
k

You know..some days things just HURT

(in reply to charmdpetKeira)

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ORIGINAL: ChainedExistence

Sometimes what is happening sort of puts you on emotional overload. You aren't necessarily crying from pain or sadness or fear, but you just get physically and emotionally overwhelmed.  

I think I would understand it better if it was a heat of the moment type thing, but this is something I think/have been thinking about for some time. I have specifically asked him to make me cry; though he hasn’t yet.

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Heck, I've cried before because it was so incredibly awesome.

Now that, sounds like a good reason to me.

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As for it being scary... Are you afraid your tears might stop what is happening?

 
 
Maybe, only from the stories he’s told me; he’s not afraid to do it and doesn’t seem as though he would be bothered by my tears, if I were not harmed.

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Does it feel like a sign of weakness?

I’m not sure, the idea of him seeing me cry, might bother me.

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Do you think it means you aren't handling the pain the way he might want?

 
 
I do have some reservations on it happening this way. So far (not in sessions), crying from pain is not from the pain it’s self; it’s because I start to think I’m being harmed.

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I've sometimes tried to stop myself from crying because of some self-imposed ideal of what a good slave should be.

If you don’t mind saying; why were you crying?

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Crying can be a great release, and a bonding experience.

Yes. I am wondering how different it would be from having someone trying to make things all better, by making me stop.
 
Thank you for responding. :)
 
k (who is still waiting for her day to... cry?) 

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ORIGINAL: charmdpetKeira

Thank you and I appreciate your reading my profile, even more so that you commented on it. I often wonder if people read that stuff and what they think of it. :)
 
Best wishes,
 
k

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ORIGINAL: mbes
If I'm crying, then you have reached my soul.

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ORIGINAL: sunshinemiss

It was truly my pleasure... quite a nice little bit of writing... *smiles

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ORIGINAL: charmdpetKeira

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ORIGINAL: mbes
If I'm crying, then you have reached my soul.

Can be a scary thought in it's self, yes?
 
It's not something I do often, and definately not something I enjoy doing around others. Which makes it more curious to me.
 

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Littlebitxxx,

The closest I've come is a fit of hysterical giggles - in the middle of receiving oral of all things!

 
 
*giggles* Sorry, must be contagious. :)

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Ah well, XMaster said it was a sign of being comfortable enough to laugh, although my timing could be worked on.

Your story reminds me of the time I lost it to the giggles. Actually that’s happened twice. The first time I was sooo embarrassed, but just couldn’t stop myself. The second; I was asking “OMG, are my nipples still attached to my body?!?

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Actually, congrats on the crying...let it all hang out!

Oh, I wish. 8)

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TysGalilah,
I think tears are unexpressed emotions.  feelings we don't have the words to express, or cannot.

 
 
These thoughts are strong in my mind.
 
All of the responses, thus far, have been very helpful; the more I read, the more I am getting a handle on possibilities of why I’m afraid. I am also beginning to wondering if my fear is not the same as the reason I want it.
 
Anyone know anything about regressive therapy? Ugh!
 
These are also great precautionary ideas. I think I will ask him to read the thread, or perhaps we can do it together.

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Probablyknowme
The scene was very primal, and he kept pushing for more and more of a response.

 
 
Do you feel you reached a point where you had no more to give, or did something else happen?

Gwynvyd,

Thank you for sharing; I often wonder what it is like from the D perspective of the situation. Especially since my owner told me, even before I started asking, making me cry is something that he plans to do.

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DesFIP,
from the power of the emotional bonding

 
 
Sounds absolutely delicious.

Thank you all.

best wishes,
 
k