crouchingtigress -> RE: Property = sharing?? (2/21/2008 7:30:14 AM)
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Thanks CP and thank you for this thread, it is a great read. i think i might elaborate a little because i like that you are interested in having a in depth discussion. i dont feel that i chose my submission to him, i chose only to act on it. when i met him i was immediately submissive, something that i had only felt once in my whole life. and there too, i chose to act on it. when i met him, i saw someone i wanted to be found worthy of, he had a brain the size of a planet, was hilariously funny, and mentally spiritually and physically pushed every limit, taboo and mental construct i had. of course this scared me, and i certainly had a choice to not go there. but i thought how amazingly rare to find a person this unique, a person who humbles me with his openness, and shames me with his courage, a person who inspires me to be worthy of my own masturbations, and a person that would not stop until he scraped clean the deepest darkest parts of myself like an abortion. his apatite for the "dark pudding of the soul" is insatiable, there is no where he is not interested in at least having a conversation about going. i thought for a while about how dumb it was, how scary this was going to be, how there were so many reasons why i might get hurt, and so many reasons to abort. but i said the three most powerful words in the human language, more powerful then i love you, or i own you....i am willing. once i said those words, that was it. it was done. i am willing.
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