LadyJeelys
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ORIGINAL: MaxineANDjohnnie While he was gone I started stewing and got madder and madder. It sounds like this is where things went wrong. Heck, I think he's right to be afraid. Its not discipline to beat on someone cause you're mad, and its certainly not sharing pleasure with a masochist. So, yeah, if I were him, I'd be scared too. So instead of looking at it like, "hey, I get to lay into you even when I'm out of control" or "we'll just be vanilla" why not have an honest discussion with him....one that begins with "I'm sorry". After all, it seems to me that you broke with his trust---in giving you the power over him to give discipline (and not just SM play) he's given you his trust that you have a core of control---self control. In responding in anger, when you weren't in self control (that you couldn't remember the discussion hints that you weren't fully in control) you weren't in a position to give him what he needs. Let him know that you realize things got out of hand and that you'll work to control you temper. I'll be honest, I'm not a disciplinarian---I see plain as pleasure. At the same time though, my slave isn't a masochist. Even when I'm in a bad mood, he yields to what I want to please me..........but as a balance to his giving, when I'm ticked I don''t administer discipline. Discipline, unlike pain for sharing, has to be bound within order. Otherwise the slave can't avoid discipline because he can't follow the order in chaos. Sooo, the other part of that conversation, might include you expectations. Maybe he's looking for discipline and you're not. If so, ya'll have to work on some sort of compromise. Besides, someone who just takes anything an everything is neither slave nor sub, they're just not smart.
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