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MiaMaria -> About absence (5/18/2008 12:31:31 PM)
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Hello everyone, the story goes; I had a Master, met and collared quickly, everything´s fine, started to have problems- never alowed others than text him at his mobile, ("hated talk in telephone"talk) and he begun drift away, from regularly contact to less, he got sick later on, which did that we couldn´t meet, after that, our contact almost faded after a while. strange he suddenly appeared at msn, claimed me to be his forever and that he never ever would let me go. This confuses me. now I haven´t talked to him for two months. It doesn´t matter,how much I beg he doesn´t answer. doesn´t matter,what I say. I don´t know, whwn he is going to get back, but he did after a long time last time. but two months never went. (his "explanations",when talked to him?-well, "I´ve had so many things to do","I´ve so many stuf going on".a.s.o., "I haven´t forgot you") But does it get any better. No.worse. He never answers my texts anymore, not even when I tell him how I feel and that I feel he´s neglecting me,and that I can´t go on like that. No answer. But for long ago, I discovered him at one dating site, I had forgot I was on,didn´t use it, anyway stupid or not I wrote to him(just a joke,for me it was stupid or not ) and he said he was searching,he was single-all that. Later he said to me he discovered it was me. But, no clues at all.
And now when he´s litterally "gone", (even though I suspect him to do the same number again like before but that doesn´t count) my former Master, who lives in a neighbourcountry, wants me back and I´m in doubt about him, all was fine but one time we should meet,I couldn´t,had to work,so I told him we had to change dates. I explained very well, apologized-all that. pof! never saw him again. Not a single word-nothing. No matter how much I explained,begged-nothing. Layed the phone on. After eight months I forgot it no hard feelings just wanted to say howdy. I never ever expect he would answer! But he did! Started to talk to me, wants me BACK. Do everything so I shall be his. Any way a Dom possible can. Keeps me up all night to asscociate with him over msn, when he´s at work far out in the atlantic sea. tries... everything´s fine.. he havent mentioned last time,why, and I havent got the words yet to ask him.. but I will,just don´t know what to ...how to express myself.. I don´t want to say any wrong.. but he mentioned some, "you would´nt cancel it all again,would you". When we talked. (and he knows it wasn´t like that) so... I don´t know,what I´m going to do with this..
And if he´s going to do it again,i´ll never know.. but that´s the chance if it´s it.. I don´t know what I´m going to do and I curtainly don´t know,how i´m going to read all this.. do you?
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