slavegirljoy -> RE: Natural Slavery (6/4/2008 9:41:05 PM)
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For me, i want to live a life that is satisfying and fulfilling and that means doing something that i can be accomplished at and that gives me a sense of purpose. Having a strong desire for something isn't enough. i have spent my life, since childhood, having a very strong, very deep, very intense desire to make music and, i have tried and, i have been extremely frustrated because no matter how hard i tried and, in spite of my deep desire, i just didn't have whatever it takes to be able to do that. i took violin lessons, guitar lessons and keyboard and, i just couldn't manage to make music. i can't sing, can barely keep a beat and can't learn a dance to save my life. And, yet the desire to make music, in some form, is still as strong as ever. i have a sister who picked up a guitar, sat in front of the TV and watched and learned the basics from a PBS show and then taught herself the rest and became a very accomplished guitarist. She then taught herself piano and plays that beautifully. She just had a 'natural born' knack for making music. i didn't. Does that make her 'better' than me? Better at making music, yes. But, better? No. And, if i could have actually accomplished making music, even if i had had to work at it, i wouldn't be any less of a musician than she was. i just would have had to put a lot more effort into it. But, ever since i can remember, i had a knack for doing things for others that made their life easier and happier and i liked the feeling doing that gave me. So, i have always been drawn to serving others. i didn't go to class to learn to do this. It just was a part of me. i just had a knack for it. i had a 'natural' tendency to serving others. It has always been easy for me and gave me a sense of accomplishment and satisfaction, knowing that i had a useful purpose. Living on my own, as a single, working mom, for many years and having to make the decisions about, not only my own life but, also the life of my offspring, was very difficult and frustrating for me. i hated it and i was driven to find someone who i could feel sure enough about to turn my life over to. When my Master took control of me, i didn't have to 'unlearn' anything. i fell right into place as His property and listening to Him and obey His decision, as if i had been born to it. It was the easiest thing i have ever done. At the very heart of my being, i am a natural servant. i never had to 'work' at it or 'try' to be a servant. It just happened. It was always a very natural thing for me to do. joy Owned servant of Master David
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