slavegirljoy -> RE: Natural Slavery (6/5/2008 9:59:10 AM)
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ORIGINAL: daddysprop247 a natural submissive does not have to be matched with the right and true Dominant for her in order to submit, a natural submissive simply submits. This is true for me. For me, it's more about the service and submission than it is about the sex and kink. Of course, having a combination of those is ideal. But, when having to choose between the two, being in a service-only (no BD/SM or sex) relationship is much more fulfilling and less frustrating, to me, than being in a relationship with kinky sex and no or, not enough, service and submission. For me to feel absolutely content in a long term relationship, i need a combination of being in a service role, being under the absolute control of another (who i admire, respect, trust, and like), and having a healthy dose of BD/SM and sex. But, finding someone, who 1) wants all these things, also and, 2) wants them with me and, 3) is ready and available to have this sort of relationship with me, isn't that easy. And, during the long stretches of time when i was unable to be in the sort of relationship that would satisfy all of these elements, i have either a) chose to be alone or, 2) gone into service-only relationships, with no D/s element, other than as a servant to a boss, and without any BD/SM or sex and with men, who were nice enough and didn't drink or smoke but, who i really had no emotional connection to. While i missed having sex (i'm just not one who goes in for casual sex or casual BD/SM play), these relationships fulfilled the vitally important need in me to be a servant. If not for my sex drive and desire for S&M, i would probably be content to remain in that service-only type of relationship for the rest of my life. But, the need for kinky sex and a good beating from time to time, made me want to keep looking for more. The few relationships i had, over the years, that gave me BD/SM and sex but, lacked the service element or the control element (other than during sex) always left me feeling emotionally empty and frustrated, to the point where i had to end them. Even being the submissive wife to a kinky, polyamorous, Dominant man, left me feeling frustrated and unfulfilled, because he didn't want to own me and he let me do what i want most of the time (too much of the time) and didn't use me as his servant. The need to be in a service role, even if it was without sex, was more important to me and i was more content in those situations than in the other. Finally, i was able to find the whole package with my Master. This (24/7, TPE, live-in) relationship is my last because it provides me with all of the elements that i need to have,in order to feel fully content and satisfied. Now, i get the kink and the sex that i enjoy but, most importantly, i am under the absolute control of my Master and at His service, round the clock. And, that was the missing element in all of my previous relationships. joy Owned servant of Master David
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