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Tapestry -> RE: Married (11/6/2005 10:40:11 AM)
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with some degree of shame and a great degree of regret i must say that yes, once i did.
my advice?
don't.
ever.
no matter how he may say his marriage is bad and she doesn't understand him, etc etc etc
you will always
ALWAYS
be the one left alone
hurting because the person you gave your power to is not there to hold and comfort you
not there to reassure and protect you
and where is he?
at the end of that beautiful scene, which transported you to heights you didn't know existed?
why silly girl, he's with his wife
you know, the one who doesn't understand him
and the one with whom he has such a rotten marriage.
no, i've learned the hard way
and while it takes time to develop a relationship with a new Dom,
time to get to know if he's trustworthy
or just another one playing with your affections
in the end,
i know i will find that which i seek
and while patience is not my strong suit
it is a lesson best learned now
rather than after another inappropriate encounter
let the married Dom's play with the likewise married subs...then they are both on the same page, not wanting or needing the on-going love and affection that i crave.
i do realize not all subs are alike,
and my need for that human contact may be unique,
but it is a part of who i am at the deepest level
as is my submissiveness
in fact, as i've learned (and continue to learn) i now know that even before i knew what bdsm was, i was submissive
and i know too,
that should i choose not to live the lifestyle
and continue in the vanilla world
i would still be submissive
it's not something i do for fun
it's who i am
for whatever reason
whatever shapes these deepest parts of our psyche
it is what it is
so no, for me, a married Dom is not an option.
maybe for you it would be ok
only you can answer that
tapestry
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