genuineguy33
Posts: 14
Joined: 11/2/2005 Status: offline
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Greetings everyone... I am curious and the more i enquire, the more i become lost and detached! The acceptance of certain aspects of me have been difficult at times and i am still struggling with some! so, I browse around and find that 'submission' isn't just an umbrella that everyone can sit comfortably under! I read posts from male subs begging to be 'broken' or 'forced'... I enjoy the 'fantasy' of it, but in reality, I have never been forced to do anything! For me, it is the act of submission that allows me to 'surrender'. I also read articles from Pi$&ED off Mistress's talking about how the sub hey had almost procurred, ran at the last minute once they realised the true depth and breadth of submission! I also hear of Dommes complaining that once the 'session' is over and the memory from the experience begins to fade... the sub suddenly jumps back into the seat of thier Ego's and become the selfish and arrogant robots they once were! For me... my ego is a 'social construct'. It is not the real me. It has taken many years of searching to find the real me and it is not my ego! So for me, submission is about 'integration' as well... not just taking flights of fancy!!! Basically it is more of a lifestyle than it is a fantasy! What are your thoughts on making it a lifestyle? what are the main issues that need to be addressed. I would love to be able to serve on a domestic basis as well, so working from home should help... Yes? I can earn as much from home as i can doing a 9-5... I just need the motivation sometimes!
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