jlf1961 -> RE: It never ceases to amaze me..... (7/9/2008 11:26:28 AM)
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With everything that has been said, and I appreciate the input, it has given me a lot of things to consider. And strangely enough, the confidence I have when I step into a training ring with an unbroke horse does not seem to carry over to my dealings with the women younger than myself. Looking back at the last few years, I can distinctly point to the period when that began to change (thank god I keep a frigging journal.) I ended a dom/sub relationship within days of a doctor informing me that I would need extensive rehabilitation on some old injuries in the lumbar spine area, and there was a chance (slim) that it could actually end with me in a wheel chair. While I have not made a full and perfect recovery, it did leave me in a positition where many of the things I once did without thinking are beyond my ability. Okay, so I cant step into a saddle and ride an unbroke horse until he gets tired, I still have the knowledge and enough skill to come up with a workable solution... i.e a feed sack full of sand, which I have been doing for the last few months. (I have also noticed that using the bag of sand seems to have the added benefit of zero bruises, dislocated joints, and fractures...) Thanks for the input from all and should I ever seem to express self doubt in the future, please by all means, give me a figurative kick in the ass. FYI, the young lady with the mare basically gave me a verbal kick in the ass this morning as well. Her words were, "Why the hell cant you show the same confidence with women as you do with horses? There aint a fucking thing different between the two, with the exception that a woman is going to tell you rather bluntly when you are being stupid." (me thinks DA made a phone call)
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